UUGGHH!!!! (vent)

sept14

I am so frustrated with trying to be in the Christmas spirit.  I had to walk in Christmas parade today in very cold temps and act all cheery!  Ugghh!  I spent all day yesterday shopping for a Christmas outfit for DS and found nothing, nada, zip!  3+ hours of dealing with crowds @ BRU and the mall that made me want to scream.  And all I found is that it is easy to find outfits for little girls, but not for little boys. 

I went back out tonight and DH went with me.  He hates shopping, but knows that I am now always on the verge of crying or biting someone's head off, so he agreed to go with me.  We hit 2 more stores tonight (3rd one I wanted closed @ 5PM)-- still nothing!

I have yet to get a professonal picture of DS and thought I would finally do it for Christmas.  Now we are less than 3 weeks from Christmas and I haven't set up an appointment or even bought him an outfit.  Just another thing for me to add to the ever-growing "Bad mommy list."

I see my MD tomorrow and will probably start on some meds.  I guess I need something to snap me out of this. 

 

lovely40

I felt guilty for not getting professional pictures of DD when she was a newborn too. I have made up for it now and wasted a TON of money. Professional pics are overrated. )

With that said - make an appointment tomorrow. The photographers around here are begging for business. There is still plenty of time. The outfit doesn't matter as much as you think it does - just try to find one that you don't hate. It'll probably grow on you. ) Once you get that done you'll feel better.

Also - call your doc. Meds are awesome. ;o)

TommysGirl56

I feel a lot like you do.  I am finally getting professional pics of DD for the first time tonight.  It's strange that something that seems like it should be so fun is really so stressful.  I felt a lot of guilt for waiting so long, too.  We did not buy any new outfits for the pictures.  I am just using a few that I have that I know I love on her.  You are not a bad mommy for not getting the pics yet.  If your DS is loved and taken care of, that is all that matters.  I think that we all might feel at times a good mommy is one who lives up to everyone else's expectations, and is able to do all the things we feel we are "supposed" to do.  But those things do not make a good mommy, just a busy one.  I know I need to work on accepting that I can't do it all.