can't stop crying

He makes me crazy...

I think perhaps PPD has crept up on me.  There have been a lot of circumstances this week that have been super stressful.  I hadn't been able to cry and let it out recently.  I'd just get a little weepy for a minute and it would pass.  But today I've been sobbing crying and just overwhelmed with all of these feelings:

-money is tight and I feel like I'm not good enough because I don't make more

-i feel like everyone cares so much about my baby and doesn't give a crap about me anymore

-i feel like I've completely lost my sense of self and haven't had any me time

-I'm completely overwhelmed with money issues and I'm fearful of what the future brings.

I haven't been to counseling since before DD was born and I'm now realizing that I really need to go.   DH just doesn't understand and thinks I'm going to turn psycho on him or the baby.  I can't talk to him because he doesn't understand why I'm so overwhelmed and says I should just accept my circumstances and pray about it.  Believe me, I do pray and I do accept the circumstances.  I have a history of depression and I feel it creeping up on me.  Anyone else in the same boat?

~Jillian~

Hi hun.  

I do understand feeling overwhelmed and feeling like you don't have any time for yourself.  For me being a new mother has been very difficult at time.  I wish I could give you some advice on the money issues but I can't I don't handle our finances and have never been very good at the money side of things.  As for feeling like you have no "me" time.  Is there a way that you might be able to leave the baby with your Husband for a few hours this weekend?  Meet up with a friend?  Get your nails done and get some coffee?  I think everyone should be in therapy.  I am a huge believer in check-ups mentally as well as physically.  I hope that you can find a good therapist who is close to you that you can talk to.  I think that would be a step in the right direction.  Good luck to you hun 

cfsinger

This post is exactly like  could have written it. Everyone of your points I feel/have felt since the baby was born and I also had a history of depression and anxiety. It got alot better since I went and saw the dr, but I also think some of these worries are normal, its the extent you worry/ feel them. If you do feel too overwhelmed, just tell DH you NEED to go to the dr and get it taken care of. and start trying to schedule in some me time when you can, I know its hard to do, but if I know I have a break coming up son, it just helps me get through the days till I do have alone time.