depression can bite me

superluper

I feel terrible. TERRIBLE. I've been in the midst of a BAD depressive episode for 5 weeks now, but my psychiatrist and I agree that since I have finals coming up next week, I can't try out any new medications. Meanwhile, I'm literally having to convince myself that life is worth living every day. 

I'm exercising and eating well (except for tonight's dinner . . . DH is on shift and I totally ate my feelings) and taking my current medications. I'm spending time out in the sunshine, doing yoga and trying to be positive. I'm going to weekly therapy. What the he11 else can I do?!?!? 

I know that I'm doing everything I can but I feel like I'm going to die. I guess I'll just try and survive the end of the semester, and then maybe we can find some better meds. Sigh. 

ColindaP

I'm sorry you're feeling like this :-( Keep up everything you're doing right now, exercising, eating right, exercise, yoga, etc. Take it one day at a time, and when one day seems like too much, take it one hour at a time, or one minute at a time, or one event at a time. Don't think about the grand scheme of exams and TTC and needing new meds and whatnot. When you have exam X coming up, study and prepare and only let yourself think about that. When it's time to make dinner, just worry about getting that done. When it's time to shower, just worry about getting that done. Etc, etc. I'm so sorry you're feeling so crappy, but I know you can make it through the next couple weeks.

ShellShockedMama

Hmm, have you tried aromatherapy? I've had a lot of success with that. I know this sounds lame, but I swear, hot baths are such a stress/depression reliever for me, with my aromatherapy oils.

threadless

I am so, so sorry.  I have felt the same way.  School certainly adds a huge amount of stress.  Hopefully after the semester you will feel better.  How are you sleeping?  I used to have a super hard time sleeping, and wouldn't be able to.  Once I slept a little better, I felt a little better.  I'm glad you are going to therapy.  I wish there was a quick fix - just know that you are thought of!