I should be having a beautiful, healthy, LIVE baby today. But I'm not. And I'm so destroyed.
What's worse is that my mom is totally insensitive and emailed me a picture of a family friend's new baby that was born a few days ago TODAY. As if I needed to see that. Why are people so clueless? My mom has been pushing me to "get over it" and to accept other people's babies to the point where I feel like she's pushing me to love them. Sending me all kinds of photos and information about newborns...and I hate to be a terrible person, but I couldn't care less about other people's babies right now. It hurts WAY TOO MUCH.
Just had to get that out.
Re: I was due today
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I'm so sorry for your loss, and that you had such a horrible reminder on your due date. Some people just don't know how to deal with other's grief and can't understand what it feels like to be one of us. It does make it worse that it's your mom, and I'm sorry that you are dealing with that pressure on top of dealing with your heartache.
I'm glad you got it out here though, we're here to listen and support. I know the ladies here have helped me a lot in the past week, just by sharing and supporting and being kind.