Back in the hospital... (vent/feeling sorry for myself)

southphilly

Well, we made it to almost a month out but now we've been readmitted.  Lew has gained a total of three ounces in three weeks and finally stopped eating altogether.  They have started him on alimentum and it seems to be doing the trick-they think that perhaps he's having a problem with my milk. It is so frustrating as I pumped for four months before taking him home to bf and now I'm being told that instead of being the best thing for him, it's actually been holding him back.  Great.  After being unable to be with my baby for so long, all I wanted to do was nurse him fat and happy and now I can't.  I'm really so upset about this.  We'll be in the hospital for a while as they run tests, etc.  at least a few days, maybe more.  This place is so depressing.  ARGH! 

clyoungsey

aww, so sorry to hear this.  Hopefully the tests will show it is something that can be fixed on your part and you will still be able to nurse him...((HUGS))

elliotandnicole

Yuck.  I'm sorry you're going through this. 

franciscaz

That is horrible. I don't blame you for being sad and frustrated. (((HUGS)))! Have they tried fortifying your breast milk?  I know with us we are only feeding them breast milk part of the day and feed the 22 cal stuff the rest of the day.

New Wife

That is no fun at all. atleast they can figure out this problem and fix it now so you can hopefully get back to bf and get him fat and happy like you want!

TriciaJoy

Oh no.

The feeding woes are so hard..

Shayna0182

I'm really sorry!  I hope you get to take your little home really soon. 

lemen99

awww I'm so sorry to hear that I hope he's home soon. 

Rachel&Joe

I am so sorry.  We have been going through similar problems with the baby having issues with my milk & it's so heartbreaking.    Right now I am on a dairy free diet & it seems to be helping a ton but she is still having issues.  Hang in there.  I have come to accept that so much of having a preemie & caring for one is out of our control.  Big hugs to you!

southphilly

Thanks guys. 

Rachel-I'm sorry that you are having similar issues.  It's really sad, I feel like first I couldn't stay pregnant and now I'm being told that my milk is hurting him.  that's kind of what they've hinted at, that maybe dairy free would work.  I guess we won't know until they've done all tests, etc.  I would like to try but I don't really want to try and not have it work out again. 

I am so over the hospital-and now we're in a gi ward not the nicu so I don't feel comfortable leaving him in a hospital room all alone. we're not even having scans done until tuesday.   the nurse said this was a "getting to know you" period-hello!  We don't actually want to live here! 

lionessdiane

I am so sorry for you. I can only imagine your frustration. Hang in there and hopefully they can figure out what is going on with him so you can go home again soon! You guys are in my thoughts!

gymrat

I am so sorry. My daughter was readmitted 3 wks after her release for a bacterial infection so I know how devastating it can be to go back. Hang in there and if you can keep pumping. You may still be able to breastfeed/pump to give him your milk if all the tests come back OK. I had to fortify my BM w/ formula for a long time. ((HUGS))

southphilly

thanks ladies!  This experience is just so awful and really only preemie moms understand.  I really appreciate that understanding.    as it turns out he is having problems with the formula too-we're doing an endoscopy tomorrow so maybe it's not my milk after all!  we're going to figure this out.