I know I posted this last night on BOTB

californiastars

But I still feel this way this morning. Usually when I get into one of these funks, I can snap myself out of it by sleeping it off, but oh no, not this time. I still feel like shitt. Anyways, here was my post last night on BOTB...We are currently on a TTC break. We have been TTCing for 2 years, I have PCOS, I take metformin, a m/c last Christmas, 5 failed rounds of Clomid, cp last cycle and starting in January we are starting injections and IUI. I was doing good knowing that we are on a break until January and I kept telling myself not to worry about anything. Well I have been spotting for the past 4 days. I started spotting on cd19. There is no sign of O and the RE doesn't seem to think it is anything to worry about.I don't know why but tonight I am just feeling very overwhelmed and like I am about to have an anxiety attach. What is going on with my body? What if the injections don't work? What if the IUI doesn't work? This is our last chance. We can't do IVF. We can't afford it (DH doesn't want to spend our life savings on something that may not work)I just have so many thoughts racing through my mind, I feel like I want to break down and cry. I don't know if I can handle this anymore. I don't know if I can do this. And if one more person tells me to just relax and it will happen, I am going to stab them in the eye. 

maritzburggirl

I wish I could say something that would make everything better, but I can send you loads of hugs and tell you that we are here for you....hang in there, sometimes it is so hard to retain hope,....big hugs. 

picarona

it just breaks my heart what the women on this board have to go through.  I'm so sorry you're dealing with this right now.  I would be overwhelmed too.  Why doesn't the RE think it's anything to worry about?  Did they give you an explanation of why it wasn't a concern?  I hate when doctors dismiss things without explaining why they're dismissing it.  

((big hugs))

californiastars

picarona:

it just breaks my heart what the women on this board have to go through.  I'm so sorry you're dealing with this right now.  I would be overwhelmed too.  Why doesn't the RE think it's anything to worry about?  Did they give you an explanation of why it wasn't a concern?  I hate when doctors dismiss things without explaining why they're dismissing it.  

((big hugs))

I told her about the horrible pain I had Tuesday morning and that I then started spotting. She said it was either a small cyst rupturing or O spotting. This morning is the beginning or day 5 of spotting 

picarona

aaaaaaaaagh I HATE spotting   especially long, unexplained spotting.  Do you agree with her that it might be either of those things?

picarona

oh wait, you already said no sign of O.  phooey.

californiastars

picarona:

aaaaaaaaagh I HATE spotting   especially long, unexplained spotting.  Do you agree with her that it might be either of those things?

I have never had a cyst rupture and I have never had O spotting, so I don't know. I think 5 days of O spotting is exceptionally long, but again, I have never had it before.

I think out of those two options it was a cyst. I just want AF to show up soon because 1. I hate spotting and 2. We are going to Vegas in December and would like a little sexy time