I'm spotting.

horizon1322

Fvcking hell. I really thought this cycle was it. And now I'm in my childhood room, crying. How pathetic.

Melaneigh1

I'm so so sorry.  It's not pathetic.  I hope you feel better!

boxermama24

How many DPO are you? Is it early spotting or right on time?  I spotted when I got my BFP.  I thought AF was here for sure.  It lasted about 5 days like a really really light period.  Don't give up hope just yet.

horizon1322

boxermama24:

How many DPO are you? Is it early spotting or right on time?  I spotted when I got my BFP.  I thought AF was here for sure.  It lasted about 5 days like a really really light period.  Don't give up hope just yet.

It depends on whether or not I actually O'ed with the first shift. If so, I'm 18 DPO. If not, I'm probably 10-12 DPO. (chart)

It's the brown spotting I often get before AF shows. I'm trying not to give up hope since everything else has been so weird this cycle (I NEVER get sore breasts, but they're killing me, etc.), but the negativity has set in. If it is AF, she should be here in full-force tomorrow.

I should have known better than to get my hopes up, but I was honestly so sure that this was it. That's at least half of why I'm so upset. I feel like an idiot. And an infertile one at that.