Is it bad...........(fish mentioned)

Cow-girl

that today I forgot what CD I am even on?

that I dont even know how many dpo I am?

Nah thats the good part because Im not stressing over ttc or the 2WW.

That I am jealous of my stupid fish!?  Here's the story so you dont think I am crazy....

I got my girls a 10 gallon aquarium to put in the "alcove area" next to our garden tub recently.  We started the tank with some guppy babies we got from my mom.  Well they werent very colorful so I went and bought two females swordfish (didnt want pairs because I didnt want them to breed) and what happens? the next morning I wake up to 20 something new swordfish babies in our tank.  And my DD insisted that I "save" them from the other fish (and put them in the breeder tank so they wouldnt get eaten)...

Only my luck I get a PG fish?  Is it bad that I am jealous that I got a fertile ho fish?  I want to steal her fertility!  *sigh*  This is what 15 months of ttc brings you to!

californiastars

Fertile ho fish! If I had been drinking anything, it would have come out my nose. 

I understand. I work at a jail and find myself being jealous of the whores (sometimes literally) that come in pregnant or have 6 kids. We have been TTC for 2 years now and sometimes I think it will never happen.

 

travers081906

LMAO....

So since they are both females I am guessing that they were already ku when ya got them!!! ????????

Also glad to hear that you haven't been stressing over TTC

Cow-girl

californiastars:

Fertile ho fish! If I had been drinking anything, it would have come out my nose. 

I understand. I work at a jail and find myself being jealous of the whores (sometimes literally) that come in pregnant or have 6 kids. We have been TTC for 2 years now and sometimes I think it will never happen.

 

Glad I gave you a giggle!  It just sucks, why is everything around me so fertile and Im not? 

Cow-girl

travers081906:

LMAO....

So since they are both females I am guessing that they were already ku when ya got them!!! ????????

Also glad to hear that you haven't been stressing over TTC

Yah apparently she was already KU...  She delivered during the night of the day we got her.  Just my luck!   Ugh

californiastars

cowgirl:

californiastars:

Fertile ho fish! If I had been drinking anything, it would have come out my nose. 

I understand. I work at a jail and find myself being jealous of the whores (sometimes literally) that come in pregnant or have 6 kids. We have been TTC for 2 years now and sometimes I think it will never happen.

 

Glad I gave you a giggle!  It just sucks, why is everything around me so fertile and Im not? 

I wish I could answer that for you. I find myself wondering the same thing. There is a girl at work that is pregnant for the second time. She got pregnant with #1 a few months after we started TTC and now she is pregnant with #2. That is not fair

Nothing about this journey is fair. I don't understand how God picks the ones that are meant to have it easy and the ones that have to struggle. As I slowly lose faith and try to cling to every morsel of religion I have, I don't understand it and until I can ask him in person, don't think I ever will. 

Cow-girl

Nothing about this journey is fair. I don't understand how God picks the ones that are meant to have it easy and the ones that have to struggle. As I slowly lose faith and try to cling to every morsel of religion I have, I don't understand it and until I can ask him in person, don't think I ever will. 

I know that girl, I know!  I dont understand it either.  The only thing I can think of is that maybe we were strong enough to handle it?  Or maybe like Job we are being tested.   Others will see what we have been through and see our faith strong still and it will be a witness without saying a word.  I wonder sometimes if God told me "why" if I could really handle it..  Its a really tough situation.

I pray that we both get our sticky babies very soon.  If you start struggling with your faith please PM me or read my daily inspiration blog (I post a link daily on the PL board).  {{hugs}} to you, I know exactly how you feel!