today sucks. vent

kellyrank

I just need to vent. I was supposed to be 20 weeks on Sunday. This week I should have been finding out if I was having a boy or a girl instead I am finding out why I lost the baby. I have a Factor II mutation which causes blood clots so most likely I passed a blood clot to the baby causing its heart to stop. I feel so guilty. I know it was not something I could have prevented, but it would have been so much easier to handle if there was something wrong with the baby itself. I should have been out buying baby things this black friday, but instead I am home cryng by myself while my son sleeps & my husband is at work. I don't know how some of you ladies who had late losses do it. I was only 9 weeks along and it still hurts so bad. I feel terrible for my husband because I am so sad & have been so distant from him but I can't help it. Usually I am strong & not super emotional, but I feel like something is missing & I can't get past it. I am so tired of being sad & fearing this will happen again.

jgoetz:)

I'm so sorry for your loss.  Don't be too hard on yourself.  You need to give yourself time to heal and do whatever makes you feel better.  T&P to you!

pepomntpat

{{hugs}}  I'm very sorry for your loss.

Frankie

(((Hugs))) and T&P your way

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Something IS missing, and it's totally ok not to feel strong right now.  I think letting yourself grieve is really important.  {{hugs}}  Take care of yourself.