Hello ladies.....I can't sleep....

bebeblues

I'm an emotional mess. I know there's probably no one out there right now, but I think I'll feel better to just get it all off my chest.

My granny isn't doing well. She hasn't been for quite some time. She has dimensia (sp?)......it got so bad this past fall that they had to put her in a community home. It's been really hard on the family.

Long story, short----when I got pregnant w/dd, I bought my granny the " Grandparents' legacy" book from Hallmark. With her diagnosis, she never got to finish writing in it to me. She had completed one years earlier for my aunt (her youngest daughter).....and so for Thanksgiving this year, my aunt had copies made of the book and made a scrapbook full of pictures and her writings in it and gave it to me. I've not really stopped crying since.

I can not tell u the impact this woman has had on me throughout my life. She is the very staple of who I am today. My mom and I have never had a very "close" relationship, but I could always go to my granny. (Who is my father's mom). When I found out I was pregnant w/dd, I knew instantly that I'd be naming her after my granny. They share the same middle name. She had been our family's rock for so long. I can not tell u the devastations that I've watched her endure.....and she never once let her faith dwindle. 

 Anyway......I've spotted on the tp again last night, so I'm assuming that AF pending is intensifying my emotions---- I can not stop crying. I can't sleep for crying.

(I'll be going out in a bit for black friday anyway.)

I just really needed to share that tonight.

happyhoopla

I am so sorry that your granny isn't doing well. It's hard to watch our loved ones' health deteriorate, especially their mental health, since it often takes away part who they are. I know that it's much easier said than done, but try to focus on the time that the two of you still have together.....it would be such a shame to look back and think that you may have lost time mourning a person who was still there. Your granny sounds like an amazing woman, try to think of what she would be telling you to do if she could. *big hugs* Hopefully some retail therapy will help today.

chutch831

I'm so sorry to hear about your granny. Dementia seems to progress so quickly and it's hard to see your loved one go through that. I know how it is to just need to let the feelings out, even that helps a little, even if the problem isn't solved. I hope you get some good deals this morning.

HugginAngel

I'm sorry to hear about your Granny. It was very sweet of your aunt to copy that book so that you will have it. Your Granny sounds like a wonderful woman and just remember she wouldn't want you to remember her this way she would want you to remember all the great things you guys had together and all the special things she shared with you. Now that she's regressing now's the time to do for her what she did for you and just be there and make her smile and feel loved even if she's confused. :::HUGZ:::

CAB'smommy

You sound like me.  I got my mamaw a book like and she stroked soon after and couldn't do it.  You, luckily, have one from your aunt.  That is so nice that she copied it for you all!  It's hard seeing someone you love go down hill like that.  It's been almost 6 months since my mamaw passed and I still can't believe she's gone.  I keep thinking I need to go visit her.  It's so hard.  She was the woman I looked up to also.  I feel your pain.  Remember the good times, for this dementia grandma is not really you grandma.  That's the way I felt anyway.  You'll be in my thoughts and prayers!