Parenting

My brother is dying

He is severly handicapped and caught h1n1 - currently he is on a ventilator, his lungs are full of fluid, they are giving him morphine and the prognosis is not good, they are just making him as comfortable as they can.

I am having such difficult and conflicting feelings. We have never known how long he would live- he cannot walk, talk or communicate at all, he cannot feed himself or do anything for himself really, he has no recognition of us...He has lived in a home for a long time because it became physically impossible for my parents to care for him.

He just turned 26, which is truly a miracle because he wasn't expected to live through infancy. He has had such a difficult painful life that I always told myself I would not be sad when he passed because he truly would go to a better place, but now that I am facing the situation I see it is simply impossible to not be sad -not only for the life he has had to live but also for the loss of it.

I have kind of lived in an h1n1 bubble because nobody around here really has it, I never thought it would have such a devastating impact on my life.

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