Hopeful yet scared?

nomadicprincess

I have been very lucky, in that getting pregnant has not been a problem for me.  I am apparently very fertile, even at 38.  However, each time I have gotten PG, it was a m/c.  (Or CP--same thing to me)

So, while I want to keep TTC, I am also scared and worried that it will happen yet again.  I'm not going to let the fear stop me, but I start wondering if I am doing something wrong.  I want a +HPT in the next few days (it is the 2ww for me now), but at the same time it scares me.  I'm afraid that I won't be excited if it happens because I'll be awaiting the next m/c.

Is anyone else on here feeling the same way?

scooter999

That is how i am feeling right now. I just got my 3rd bfp last week and I am not excited....I am just waiting for something to happen. I think that I am just protecting myself from being hurt again.....well trying to protect myself that is.

sydney0928

I think that's very normal. One day at a time, it's all you can do.

You live in Sherman? As in near Spfld? You're like 5 min from me if so

nomadicprincess

sydney0928:

I think that's very normal. One day at a time, it's all you can do.

You live in Sherman? As in near Spfld? You're like 5 min from me if so

Yes, I'm in Sherman.  Very cool! 

Cissi64

Same for me.  I have been Pg 5 times since I turned 40 but with only 1 success...don[t want to give up but don't want to gothrough it again either.

fatima5968

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling, I've had two as well. Have you had any testing done to rule out things like clotting, etc?

meggiejo

I am scared to death to get Pg again, but at the same time I am determined not to let this setback beat me. Good luck with testing!

nomadicprincess

fatima5968:

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling, I've had two as well. Have you had any testing done to rule out things like clotting, etc?

Not yet.  They did discover with my last pregnancy that my progesterone was really low.  So as soon as I get a +HPT, I need to start using progesterone suppositories. Hopefully that will do the trick.  Of course, now I'm looking at every symptom and anxious to take a PG test just so I can get started to be on the safe side.  I'm sure if I have another m/c then I will have more tests done.

fatima5968

nomadicprincess:

fatima5968:

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling, I've had two as well. Have you had any testing done to rule out things like clotting, etc?

Not yet.  They did discover with my last pregnancy that my progesterone was really low.  So as soon as I get a +HPT, I need to start using progesterone suppositories. Hopefully that will do the trick.  Of course, now I'm looking at every symptom and anxious to take a PG test just so I can get started to be on the safe side.  I'm sure if I have another m/c then I will have more tests done.

Makes sense, my doc said it's normal to test after 3, but he tested me early anyway. The low progesterone may not be something present in your next pregnancy, it could have been a symptom, not a cause of a non-viable pregnancy. Although I guess your prog # on ur next pregnancy will guide your doctor. Best of luck to you.

nomadicprincess

fatima5968:

nomadicprincess:

fatima5968:

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling, I've had two as well. Have you had any testing done to rule out things like clotting, etc?

Not yet.  They did discover with my last pregnancy that my progesterone was really low.  So as soon as I get a +HPT, I need to start using progesterone suppositories. Hopefully that will do the trick.  Of course, now I'm looking at every symptom and anxious to take a PG test just so I can get started to be on the safe side.  I'm sure if I have another m/c then I will have more tests done.

Makes sense, my doc said it's normal to test after 3, but he tested me early anyway. The low progesterone may not be something present in your next pregnancy, it could have been a symptom, not a cause of a non-viable pregnancy. Although I guess your prog # on ur next pregnancy will guide your doctor. Best of luck to you.

That's what the doc said.  She said either I have an issue with low progesterone or it was a sign that I was going to miscarry in the first place.  She wants me to use the suppositories until info becomes more clear.