Didn't think I hated all holidays

mvp12

I never knew Halloween would be hard for me. Last Halloween I had my first failed clomid TI cycle. I handled it well because I was still so hopeful.

Today was so hard because we are now on a break. I am laid off, and I am doing Lupron for 3 months for Endo.I am just waiting to get job so I can start IVF. Wow, has a lot changed in a year!

We had over 250 kids. My parents were here and I felt so bad for them not having grandchildren of their own to see. I hate IF so much!!

I am thinking about all of you girls today who are going through this with me. It is not fair!!

Alie05

Yeah, kinda with you there.  I didn't think halloween would make me feel sad, but it does. 

I guess all the little ones in their little costumes looking all cute. 

I'll admit it.

I'm jealous. 

so1966

it certainly is so normal to be jealous. after all, it seems that all the holidays are child-centered. 

 we have so few trick or treaters. my neighbors across the street are practically the only neighbors that come trick or treating the past few years and i even feel apart after they left. i didn't even answer the door (my dh did) as i had a cold, but i did peak outside the window as they left. what a cute family! 

 we are friendly and say 'HI." but not close at all. i just can't see myself being friends, as we've been waiting so long to have kids and they already have two.  i'm such an outcast and i hate it.  it's just too hard for me to be around children all the time when i've been waiting forever to have my own!  IF sucks!...

cjdub13

Holidays are so hard. ?Last Halloween I was so hopefully we could have our baby or at least be pregnant. ?We had been trying for 5 months and were hoping for that BFP, which has still yet to be seen. ?Now Halloween is just a reminder of how much IF sucks.

Babsie7

Alie05:

Yeah, kinda with you there.  I didn't think halloween would make me feel sad, but it does. 

I guess all the little ones in their little costumes looking all cute. 

I'll admit it.

I'm jealous. 

This. I hate that jealous feeling, but it's there.

psychmusetls

mvp12:

My parents were here and I felt so bad for them not having grandchildren of their own to see. I hate IF so much!!

this is one of the hardest parts of holidays for me.

::hugs:: to you tonight!

MAK06

Yeah, I'm not a big fan anymore.  Obviously this is a kid-centered holiday and yup - no kids here!  It's seriously depressing.  Can't wait to be on facebook tomorrow when all the mommies post their pics ... 

missred75

I'm sorry. I can totally relate. I didn't do too badly for Halloween, but I know Christmas will be really hard this year. Hang in there, hun. We're all in this together. ::hugs::

thisisbliss

I definitely know how you feel...I felt miserable today...atleast my adorable niece and nephew came over to surprise us...I may not have kids of my own, but I atleast get to borrow them now and then...and that's better than nothing. 

 

here's to next year...[for all of us]