Update(longish)

k827

So H and I talked yesterday after this shitastic day that I had and we plan on meeting with the RE when the secretary gets back from vaca.

H wants some answers(he kills me) as do I. We laughed about the embies not wanting us and we..well..i cried. I think i cried the most when he came home yesterday. I just look at his face and see the disapointment and hes NOT and open person with his emotions. I just cant see us not being parents but I didnt think it would ever be this hard.

I know we'll get there one way or another....someday.

We have to save the $1800 for the meds before we can begin anything which should take a while since I havent found work yet...but we'll get there. Probably sometime in nov-dec..latest Jan. so i guess the chance of us having a 2010 baby is still attainable.

Im not ready to give up. I will not let IF win.

Im looking forward to the long break although with the holidays around the corner(sorry to mention that..lol) im sure it will be difficult.

Now its on to operation weight loss. My goal right now is about 15-20...I have way more to lose than that but I thought id keep it small and attainable.

If you made it this far thanks for listening!!!!!

katie

 

Kiki11

(((Hugs)))  I know how hard it is.  I'm dreading the holidays, too.  I hope that you find a fantastic job soon and you can start the next steps as soon as you're ready. 

pria2004

I am sorry you have to go through this.But I am glad to see your spirits are up again. After my 3rd IVF failure , we decided to take a break too and I went right ahead on weight watchers and went from 167 to 143lbs. My RE didnt say i had to lose weight.I did it because I wanted to take control of my self.All of 2008 and the 3IVFs had taken thier toll on me emotionally and physically.I think I feel better about myself now.So does DH. and no  I have not let IF win etiher,we will be cycling again for sure.

 So take your time ...GOOD LUCK!!

 

efhoping2010

I am so sorry you are going through this.  Never give up and keep thinking positive   You are right, do not let IF win, boo.

*jenjen*

I'm sorry about your bad news yesterday.  It's great that you and your husband can talk about it and the future and can be positive together about your next steps.  Take care...you will beat IF!!

igh0318

I'm glad you're not giving up.  (((HUGS)))

CandT

So sorry you are going through all of this, but it sounds like you have a great plan. That is the only place to start. hang in there!!

*Willis*

Plans are good, and I'm glad you all are talking and coming up with one.  I hear you on the holidays.  I was lying in bed last night thinking about it.  DH said he wants us to skip town b/c he knows I'll be sad.