So, I just had my first really good cry

renafaith

And it was quite therapeutic, even if it didn't fix anything. I'm just glad DH wasn't here to see it.

When I was diagnosed with PCOS 5 years ago, it didn't really bother me cause I wasn't ready to have kids. But now that I am and I've been lurking and posting some on this board, the reality hit just a few minutes ago. I always just figured I'd have to take a few pills and that'd be it. But it wasn't until recently that I did research on the physiology of the disease. Not only will I have to use fertility treatments, they may not work. And if they do, the egg might not stick, and if it does, it might not stay stuck. And this could even be an endless cycle....

Ok, sobbing again. I know all of you have gone through this and go through it every day, and this is just the beginning for me.  How do you deal?  Will I make it out without going totally insane?

By the way, sort of what brought this on: I called the doc today and he didn't even want to see me. He said he'd call me a script in and if AF didn't show up in 2 1/2 weeks to call back.  Well, I went to 2 pharmacies (I told him which one to call it in to, but there's another one in town that sounds similar) and they had nothing for me. GRRRR!

Thanks for letting me vent.

psychmusetls

::hugs:: i'm sorry you're feeling down.  i don't really have any advice.  but for myself, i find that focusing on teh treatment plans and keeping faith that even if what i'm doing now doesn't work, something eventually will.  in the end, i'll be a mom.  one way or another.  even if it means adoption.  someone will call me mom.

DaniGirl0517

Oh hunny I know just how you feel. I have no advise, I just found out about PCOS a few days ago, but I felt just the same way.  Hope tomorrow is better, we're all here for you.

laure1122

You have to take it one day at a time, almost one breath at a time some days.  I had a really good cry tonight too.  I always take comfort knowing that the girls on this board feel similar things that I do, that I am not completely alone.  Even though they are "strangers" that we share this common bond is comforting.

Mrs.AmandaMqn

::hugs::

PCOS and IF are both b*tches. I have read a lot of PCOS success stories so try not to lose all hope. Have you read any PCOS books? Do a search on amazon.com and you'll be surprised at how many turn up. I highly suggest reading some. We are here anytime you need to cry!

renafaith

Thanks. I'll check out some books. I've looked at Taking Charge of your Fertility, but with the move and getting settled in I just haven't been able to get it. Maybe that's good though cause I need something PCOS related. You ladies are so sweet! I'm so glad I have y'all for support, especially since DH doesn't want me to ever talk about what we're going through to anyone I know.

Dragonfly1226

I'm so sorry. IF will sneak up on you sometimes and a good cry is exactly what is needed. (((((hugs)))))