Hello Ladies,
I wanted to let you know I check in often to see how everyone is doing. Especailly mrsjmiller and my other pre-e girls. I think of you often, and pray for you.
I am on the roller coaster of emotions after losing a child. I find strength in your stories, and that each of you are doing well. It gives me hope. We have our 6 weeks post delivery visit on Wednesday. We are waiting to hear the plan of attack and the test they plan to preform.
I wish you all well, I am pulling for you!
Re: Hi
I am so glad you wrote. I think about you too.
I honestly cannot imagine what you are going through. I hate pre-e and it is so scary. I do hope you find some answers and feel encouraged to travel this road again. I felt having a 27 weeker due to pre-e was traumatizing but never have I lost sight that it could have been a lot worse. Having another baby post pre-e and the preemie/nicu experience is hard - but again, I cannot imagine the leap of faith you will take. I will tell you that I have been treated so differently this pregnancy. The wonderful monitoring and constant care of my doctors is why I am going to make it so much farther. Sometimes I wished that I did have an underlying disorder because I felt like that could have been treated - instead, it is more like we have no idea why you had pre-e.... I am sure your will be seeing an MFM and that you will be watched like a hawk. My doctors did not fool around, 22 weeks, high BP - I was on bed rest. and I will sing the praises of bed rest forever. I know that is why I am farther because at 22 weeks, all signs were pointing to me having severe pre-e again. I boredly but gladly lie around all day, buying my little girl time. I know you will have a different and amazing experience next time around.
I do not know if it is possible to ever emotionally recover from your loss. I have been on edge this entire pregnancy and so scared at every turn. I think I could have used some counseling to get over my previous experience. I am not sure if it is possible that I would have "enjoyed" this pregnancy - but I think there are things I could have used some help on getting past. I can only imagine how much more amplified your experience is, so I would maybe consider that.
On another note, it is so nice that you are rooting for us pre-e gals. Someday I hope they find more understanding to this terrible disease.
Take care and let me know how your appointment goes on Wed.
Thanks-
Arika