Why is this getting harder?

CaliJenny

I thought it was supposed to get easier!  I've been back to work for 2 months and at first it was ok, I actually enjoyed going back to work and thought, gee, this isn't so bad.  But now I am starting to dread it and spend all day trying not to dwell on the fact I'm not with them.  But I know I'm not cut out to be a sahm.  Going part time isn't an option and I fear taking off a couple of days would only make things harder to have to go back to work after that.  geesh, I never thought I'd feel so conflicted. 

Printergirl

It's been harder on me lately as it's summer and weekends are so busy that we don't get the family time I'd hope for. So I've been trying to take a 1/2 every other Wednesday or Thursday to get a few extra hours with DS w/o stressing myself out with missing too much work. It's been helping so far!

Stellasmom

This is what happened to me too. I'm sorry.

Mel&Jason

I totally agree with you.  I def have my good days and bad days ... and when I have a bad day ... it is badddddddddddddd. I too would love to work PT ... but like you, it is not an option.  Hopefully we can pull through this and have some more good days than bad ahead of us!

EveryNameIWantIsTaken

I am 100% with you on this.  I enjoyed being back at first, now I despise it.  The schedule I was told I would have has been nothing close to the one I am given each week, I get to see DS for about 2 hours max most week days, it just sucks.  Then again, since I have been back I have realized this is not where I want to be and am planning going to school FT in the spring.  I think we could swing me not working with financial aid loans and that would give me so much more time with DS.