Baby steps of progress re: my PPD

cooker71

I've been on medication now for a few months and while it definitely helped me cope with the surprise of Miles' diagnosis and dealing with all that, DH being laid off and me having to go back to work early only added more stress to the mix and I had my medication upped a bit.

I'm hoping it's starting to kick in already because I've been feeling more in control of everything again lately, despite the chaos at my workplace and DH's continued search for another job.

I tend to isolate myself from others when I'm stressed/depressed and that's exactly what I did after Miles was born. While I still talked with you all and close friends and family immediately afterward, I didn't want to talk in person about it as much because I would start crying and I'm not OK with showing my emotions to many people.

I made a goal with my therapist of returning one phone call a week from people who have called since Miles' birth so it wasn't too overwhelming and made my first call last night.

I was scared she was going to be mad at me but, of course, she's my friend and was totally awesome about everything. And we had such a good discussion. I didn't cry, but just talking more about everything that's happened made me feel better.

I'm trying to make more of an effort to get together with friends and am going to call another local mom of a child with Down syndrome here maybe next week or the week after, I haven't decided.

Anyway, I know this is long and rambling, and I still have a ways to go until I'm totally back to normal, but I feel like I'm doing better again and that's something to be proud about. For me, at least.

MamiH

Good for you!  I think you are a very strong person and both of your children are lucky to have you as their mother.

oparcm

Sounds like you have a good plan. 

MelandJeff

Good job Cookie.

eclaires

Good for you, cooker!

It's so hard to admit the things we struggle with, even to those close to us.  I give you major props!

Heidisean

((((HUGS))))) You are an awesome person and mom. You are headed in the right direction. I still feel a bond with you because we had the same due date but unfortunately I mc'ed. You have a great/beautiful family and remember that!!!

Hang in there;)

*Lu-Lu*

((hugs))

 

mommyofgriffy

Good for you!!

goodheartedmommy

That's awesome.  Every step is a step, no matter the size!

karen6784

Cooker you rock!  I am inspired by your ability to handle so many challenges with such grace. 

REOM

That's awesome. You SHOULD feel proud of yourself. Keep it up girl! You rock

cooker71

Thanks ladies.

You all have really been such a pillar of support for me these past few months. I am sure I would be doing much worse if I didn't have you all to vent/talk to, especially about things that are hard for me to talk about IRL.

hikerbeth

attagirl.

femmegem

That's awesome! I hope it just keeps getting better for you.

belle204

(((hugs))) You know my medicated ass feels you.

CubbyMama

You should absolutely be proud of yourself!  I don't know you IRL, of course, but from what I can tell, you're an amazing person and I know things are going to work out for your little family.

SumnerBride

I know I've had a wicked time with my PPD, both times.  It's hard enough having just had a baby, but add the PPD on top of all the other things you're going through, and that would be enough to derail me or any other normal person!  I think you're doing a fabulous job and should be really proud of yourself.

summerbrideDC

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

sounds like you're really making progress. ??

niecy

you're one tough cookie

Zenya

Wonderful! 

camrude

mikeandmonica

Yay for you - glad we could be here for you!