Too scared to test

MsZoeB

So I am pretty sure about the test result. I am now on CD31, 14 DPO. I have had consistent temps for the past 4 days. I am hungry (shaky), thirsty, tired, peeing(4:30am this morning), boobs hurt. I can smell DH breakfast (cheerios) from the second floor of the house. And no sign of AF.

But with all of this I just can't bring myself to test. I am afraid of getting a positive and then suffering the loss again. I only knew I was pregnant for 5 days before the mc. But if I don't test then I won't know for sure. If I were to lose it, then I can chalk it up to AF and nothing more. 

I know that I am being crazy but I think all of the waiting and looking for symptoms as made me leary of my own intuition. 

Can someone please send me the confidence to pee?

ashley0616

I completely understand. I am in a similar situation. I promised myself I would test this AM so I would at least know, but now I"m putting it off till tomorrow and will probably end up waiting til Weds. It's so scary, and unsure. But think of it this way: you'd rather know. God forbid you start having heavy bleeding in a few days, you'll suspect it's a m/c anyway. So go for it. *POAS dust* lol. I'll be thinking about you!

mlmtgg

pee pee pee pee!!

it's so hard - and understandable -- but at this point in your cycle I would find it hard to wait -- just pee and one way or the other - you have your answer.

where in WNY do you live? Do I need to come over and make you test??   good luck!

redshoegirl

How about this: You have a beautiful chart. You have rockin' symptoms. If you don't POAS right now, I will fly over there and play soundtracks of running water until you have to go and then I will wait outside the bathroom door until you test.

No? OK then, how about this: I'd be scared too. Hell, I don't think I even have a shot this cycle and I'm terrified just at the thought of another positive. Not because it wouldn't be a wonderful thing, but because of the fear of another miscarriage. I know the odds are against multiple miscarriages, but I'm scared anyway. And I'd still POAS, and I think you should too - because if you're pregnant (and I think you are!) you will love your baby. And even if you do miscarry again (which you won't!), that baby deserves to be loved for as long as it's here. So. Go POAS. Then love your baby with all your heart.

MsZoeB

You girls have me in tears! Thank you for the support and the reassurance that my gut is telling me the right thing. Maybe I will pick up a pee stick on my way home from lunch. Then I at least have one at home for when I am ready. 

mlmtgg... you may just need to come over and make me pee. DH won't push for it. I need someone to. 

wannabmommy

I would say to go POAS, but maybe since' you're a bit scared to test, wait until tomorrow for fmu. Good luck!

JenyM

My last BFP cycle, I was scared sh!tless to test.

Either way, if AF if that late you'll know something was going on (CP). So, just do it!

suntoto@gmail.com

IMHO, you should do what you need to do to make yourself happy.  If you want quick answers POAS.  If you want to wait and see what nature has in store for you, then wait.  Don't be pressured into something that you might not be ready for.   Take it at your pace and try to stay relaxed about it all.  GL!