Yesterday was not a great day (vent)

ashley0616

DH and I got into a huge fight the second I got home (over something petty and stupid, of course). I'd had a really stressful day and just didn't need it, so I went for a walk. While on the walk I passed a very cute little family. Mom, grandma, and I assume an aunt were out walking with mom's boys: twins. I held it together till I passed them, they were the cutest little guys. Probably about 15 months old, stopping at every flower to smell it and every crack in the sidewalk to examine it. They were dressed exactly the same.

Once I was passed them I lost it, crying, hyperventillating. They were the first twins I've seen since we lost ours, and it hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. Luckily, I wasn't far from home and by the time I got back I was such a wreck that DH didn't push the issue of the fight any further. We've decided to put off TTC again for a while due to financial issues, but I still have such an urge/want/need to be pregnant again. I've been an absolute nutcase with this internal struggle, and those boys were just such a very real glimpse of what I lost, what could have been...

It was not my best day, to say the least.

mrsfarmer0711

Awww.... ((BIG HUGS)) I hope today is a better day!

MsZoeB

I am sorry that you are struggling. Take the time that you need both for financial and time to heal emotionally.

jshay778

((hugs)) I am sorry. I hope today is ALOT better than yesterday.

heathergirl67

I'm so sorry

Ruby_Tuesday

Your post makes me want to cry.  ::hugs::

Jacquiemark

I'm sorry, I hope you have a better day today.

Mia07

I'm so sorry.  I hope today is alot better for you.

((HUGS)) 

Addicted2thenot

Sounds like a rough day, I hope today is better for you :O)

nemattox

I am so sorry yesterday was so hard.  I hope this weekend is much better for you.  ((HUGS))