cried in public today (rant)

sugarbeetsy

I do an internship in a program with very poor & homeless moms and babies. Today I was standing with some of the women, holding one of the sweet, sweet babies and we were all just chatting. One of the moms made a pregnancy announcement. She has 3 kids, this makes 4. She relies on our program for food, diapers, etc.. The other moms were all so happy for her and congratulating her, everyone was just so...excited.

A baby is a blessing. I know this. But I just totally lost my shiit. My eyes welled up and I was trying to hand the baby back to their mom so I could excuse myself but the baby did that sweet grabbing thing and didn't want to let go. So I stood there trying to peel this child off me while I tried to not let tears roll down my cheeks (which they did anyway).

It was just so awkward.

I thought I was being cool about getting ku taking some time, but man, that just hit me hard today. Weird.

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ccbanana

Awe, this is so sad.  I am sorry hun.  Hugs to you.  How long have you been trying?

 

Mrs.Lucan

I would have done the exact same thing.

baby#1hopeful

Aww...this is sad.  I completely understand where you are coming from.  I probably would have started crying too.  ::hugs::

sugarbeetsy

Thanks so much ladies. I knew someone here might be able to relate.?

This makes the 7th official cycle of TTC, but we had that "if it happens it happens" attitude for awhile. Several of those cycles don't count though because of DH being OOT.

?I dunno, I just usually try to keep a "chill" attitude.

Today I was certainly not chill though.

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Cookiecrisp

It can hit at the most unexpected (or expected) times. ?I work in a high school so I see pregnant teens all day (currently we have 45 reported). ?It's frustrating. ?Hang in there and good luck!

Lexi0402

Ugh I totally understand how frustrating that was. I don't blame you, I would have probably done the same.