no good, very bad day... (XP from BOTB)

Meegs10.13.06

Having a bit of a bad one today, although I'm trying to pull myself out of it. It just seems like I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine, and then BAM! I get smacked in the face with something that just rips me open. Today it was an acquaintance from high school on facebook putting up belly pictures. Most pregnant women don't bother me, but I found out she was pregnant just a few days after we found out we'd lost our babe, when she announced it at 5-freakin-weeks. It just hit me when I was so raw then, and now I can't see her pictures without having my guts twisted. Not to mention that we should be 20 weeks now, half way there, and it hurts to know that instead of that, we are just getting to try again.

I just need to banish should from my vocabulary because it is a shitty, painful word.

That's all really, just having a bad morning and needed to get it out. 

dkfitz07

Meegs10.13.06:

just need to banish should from my vocabulary because it is a shitty, painful word.

 

I totally agree with this. Why do we do this to ourselves?

Mia07

That is a horrible word, indeed. 

I'm sorry you're having a rotten day, ((HUGS))

You should get yourself something really yummy for lunch and treat yourself. 

lil_rhody

Sorry you're having a rotten day. I don't go on facebook myself any more. I have nothing to say to most of those people. It stinks thinking of where we would have been if not for our losses. It's something I try not to let myself think about, but sometimes it's inevitable.

Sue&Pasquale

I am so sorry. facebook is very hard for me. I cant stand when friends announce they are pregnant, belly pics, etc. its like a punch in the stomach. I try to stay off it.

I am so sorry. big hugs to you.

 

 

Ruby_Tuesday

Yes.  The pain comes and goes and FB can really bring up the hurt when you are having an otherwise fine day.  All those people you know with their perfect families and perfect pregnancies...

jen-dale

Mia07:

That is a horrible word, indeed. 

I'm sorry you're having a rotten day, ((HUGS))

You should get yourself something really yummy for lunch and treat yourself. 

This. And I won't say it gets easier, but the bad days do get a little farther apart and a little less intense.

 

Meegs10.13.06

Thanks ladies.

I'm so glad that you guys get how I'm feeling, really understand it.

jgilleland

I am so sorry about the rough day. I completely understand. I am dealing with my cousin who got pregnant right before me and I have told that side of the family to please stop sending me u/s or belly pictures I will ask if I want to see them.  They have also not been supportive of me during this time so I am learning to step away from them and stop seeing them.  It is just too hard to see those pictures knowing I should be that big as well.  I hate that word should as well it is a very painful word. Sending you lots of hugs today!!

waitingforbaby#2

(hugs)