So Confused

mymee

This is my first time posting, but I've been lurking for a while.

 I've been on BC for a few years as a precaution while we got a precancerous condition under control.  It's looking more and more like it's never going to get under control, though, and my OBGYN has advised DH and I to start TTC while we still have time (we're ready, we were holding off on TTC while I was undergoing treatments since I couldn't have them while PG and not having them could mean infertility)

 We're not telling anyone we're TTC because MIL had 4 late term MCs and is a little scarred by everything.  And I'm not going to show my mother any favoritism because all that's going to do is come back to haunt me.  So I don't really have anyone to talk to about this except for my two best friends who aren't TTC and have no children.  I need a common ground.

 First.  We've been off the BC for over 3 months, and I THINK I got my first positive OPK today.  It's Answer dip sticks (i've gone through so many of the expensive ones that we decided to get the cheapo ones until i'm back to regular).  I took two tests with the same sample, and in both of them, the left edge of the test line is REALLY dark, but it fades into a shade just lighter than the control line as it moves to the right. The instructions say that you're comparing "The color, not the thickness of the lines."  Does that mean it's a positive?

Also, I know some women have quick surges and have to test more than once a day.  How do I know if I'm one of those women? 

 My temperature isn't helping me at all right now.  I've been sick on and off for the last week, so it's thrown all that charting out the window.

 TIA

justinlovesme

If it says the color and not thickness, I'd go with positive.  Congrats!  early-pregnancy-tests.com have super cheap opk's.  Great for testing 2x a day.  The only way you'll know if you are one of those women is waiting, and comparing results to temperatures.  Sorry!  Good luck!

mymee

Thanks!  I kind of feel thrown into all of this since we just found out recently that my fertility has an expiration date! I wasn't expecting it to be like this.

 But, I bet a lot of women here think that TTC and pregnancy will be one way until you actually get here. 

 Another question - I know stress is supposed to affect TTC chances.  Any suggestions on how to lower stress levels related to the "OH MY GOD I"M RUNNING OUT OF TIME!" feeling besides a glass of good red wine?