HTT: Dear Prudence

Dr.Loretta

Dear Prudie,
When I was 17, I got pregnant. My family was not supportive, and I did not want to raise a child on my own. I placed her for adoption but never forgot about her. Twenty-three years later, I got in touch with the lawyer who assisted with the adoption and shortly after got a phone call from my long-lost daughter. We talked for a while, then e-mailed a lot. The more contact we had, the more I didn't like her. She seemed very immature and bratty?she still lives with her parents and had a child last year, whom her parents are raising. Several months later, we met. Also at the meeting were her mom, her baby, my mom, and my daughter, who is five years younger then she. This girl is rude and disrespectful to her mom, yells at her baby, dresses like a slob, and was a brat the whole weekend. My mom said this is the way she was raised, and we should be tolerant. I am all for tolerance, but this kid is awful. Still, for her birthday I sent her a great gift. I called and asked if she received it, and her response was, "Yeah, it was nice." I had put a lot of thought, time, and money into this gift, and that's all I get. I feel nothing for this girl, even though I know she is my daughter. This makes me feel guilty. How could a mother not love her own child, even if she didn't raise her? She is in school to join my chosen profession, which I think she will suck at.

?What Should I Do About the Daughter I Never Wanted?

Dear What,
It's sometimes easy when smacked in the face with issues such as abandonment, disappointment, loss, love, obligation, and guilt to focus on something more manageable. Something like, OK, so 23 years ago, I did decide I couldn't raise you. But now I've gone to the trouble of getting you a really nice birthday gift, and you're not thanking me properly, you little brat! I accept that this girl is obnoxious and immature?but maybe this isn't just a matter of nurture, but also of nature, because you are exhibiting those same qualities yourself. You must know that in regard to you, she has some big issues of her own. Surely she can detect how much you dislike her, which might set her to thinking, Hey, "Mom," the more time I spend with you, the happier I am that I was adopted. And how nice that five years after I was born, you decided to keep your next daughter?I guess you think she turned out better than me. Yes, she is your biological offspring, but her mother is the person who raised her?perhaps not very well?and who is there for her and for her child now. How disruptive of you to appear in this young woman's life and be so judgmental about how she isn't meeting your needs and expectations. For the future, a marginal relationship between the two of you is probably for the best. Or possibly you could learn to put aside your disdain and become a supportive, if peripheral, presence?someone who can give her guidance as she tries to make her way into your profession and help her so she doesn't "suck" at it.

?Prudie

 Thoughts? I feel like I'm missing part of the story. Or maybe I just always feel that way...

MsBlake

I didn't really get that part of it either.

marlee

Well, "What should I do about the daughter I never wanted", judging from your signature, you probably shouldn't have contacted her. ?

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EmmieB

marlee:

Well, "What should I do about the daughter I never wanted", judging from your signature, you probably shouldn't have contacted her.  

 

 

Exactly.

 

And this is why our adoption will be semi-open, so that there is never a moment when the Birth Parents just pop back into our lives.

TTCgradstud

marlee:

Well, "What should I do about the daughter I never wanted", judging from your signature, you probably shouldn't have contacted her.  

Well said!  I think the BM thought about this girl as a perfect princess- sort of the way that children may think of BPs before open adoption "My mom was a princess and I was kidnapped and taken away from her.  She was shocked at the reality of the girl, who may not have been that thrilled to have her BM show up after all these years, and in dealing with her feelings was mean to her mother.  I'm sure there is plenty of back story, but I think Prudie was right to point out that BM was a bit of a brat herself.