I contemplated what to share since the February situation went so poorly and was quite painful, but you ladies have given me so much support and knowledge that I wanted to let you know...?
I'm working working off of very little sleep today due to a late night call that appears will change our life forever. On Saturday we submitted for the first case since our failed adoption. This past month and a half was long and hard and we were really scared to submit again. First go around we were not picked for 4 or 5 cases we were shown for and the let down was hard enough to make us question when we would be ready to start again.?
Before I knew anything about this case, I knew it was our son. Kind of creepy but I just had this feeling. Turned out this case was perfect for us and we decided to go for it. The stars seemed to be aligned and everything felt right from the agency, to the birthparents to the timing of the birth and apparently the birthparents felt the same way.
I've always wondered how it would feel to hear someone on the phone tell us that "they adored us and have chosen us to parent their child". (Last time it was a born baby so there was no selection process.) It's pretty incredible and overwhelming.
We are super excited, but still cautious because of last time. We feel that we chose a case that has the least amount of risk physically possible at this point and we trust the parties involved. There is always that chance but we have decided to go in hearts wide open.
If all goes well, our little boy will be born two weeks from today and we will be there to experience every moment of it. ?
I have felt that a lot of my posts have been about the negative side of adoption and the letdown. I wanted to share that if what my gut is telling me is true, then this second round would completely negate all the rest of it and has been a beautiful experience so far. We shall see once we have him in our arms! ?But I do believe everything happens for reason and I can see how every hurtful thing we experienced at the beginning of the year played a part in us finding this baby as well as preparing us to be ready when we do find him.?