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I just need to vent today

I have been pretty well since my 4th loss.  I am coming up on some more anniversaries and EDDs and am just sad about everything again.  4/4/08 I found out I was pregnant for the second time and my 3rd EDD is 4/15/09.  I almost feel I had more of a connection with my 3rd pregnancy than the first two, since I watched my baby growing and my hopes and dreams growing along with him.  Sometimes I can't believe that I really have lost 4 babies.  I have trouble taking it all in. 

I had a craptastic day (unrelated to my losses) and I just feel sad about everything.  I can't even verbalize what I am feeling or trying to say.  I just need to say that I am sad and stressed waiting for our test results from my 4th pregnancy.

7 mm/c
APS, hetero factor v leiden & MTHFR
bfp #1 - 12.11.07, edd 8.14.08, mm/c 1.21.08 (10w4d)
bfp #2 - 4.4.08, edd 12.3.08, mm/c 5.14.08 (11w)
bfp #3 - 8.3.08, edd 4.15.09, mm/c 9.17.08 (10w)
bfp #4 - 1.15.09, edd 9.26.09, mm/c 2.16.09 (8w2d)
bfp #5 - 6.16.09, edd 2.25.10, mm/c 7.23.09 (9w)
bfp #6 - 8.12.10, edd 4.27.11, mm/c 9.16.10 (8w1d)
one more try -> bfp #7 - 2.11, our miracle baby boy arrived 10.11
ttc again -> bfp #8 - 5.3.13, edd 1.13.14, mm/c 5.30.13 (7w3d)
bfp #9 - 9.23.13, our miracle baby girl arrived 5.29.14

Re: I just need to vent today

  • I'm so sorry, vent away. My 1st EDD was 4/15 as well. I will be thinking of you that day.?
  • I'm so sorry you're having such a bad day.  My thoughts are with you!
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  • I am so sorry sweetie.  I have those days too. Please feel free to vent as we can relate to your feelings and emotions. That is what we are here for!!!

    On a side: I have a very good friend with the same exact diagnosis as you and she is pregnant with her second child right now (she too went through a few losses before each pregnancy).  She is doing Lovenox injections and took progesterone for the first 14 weeks. She has been a good source of support as I go through my own losses.

    -I don't know if that helps or hurts but I figure that it may help to know that you can and will get pregnant with a sticky baby. Big hugs.

     

     

     

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    I am so sorry sweetie.  I have those days too. Please feel free to vent as we can relate to your feelings and emotions. That is what we are here for!!!

    On a side: I have a very good friend with the same exact diagnosis as you and she is pregnant with her second child right now (she too went through a few losses before each pregnancy).  She is doing Lovenox injections and took progesterone for the first 14 weeks. She has been a good source of support as I go through my own losses.

    -I don't know if that helps or hurts but I figure that it may help to know that you can and will get pregnant with a sticky baby. Big hugs.

     

     

    Thanks.  I had all my testing done after the third pregnancy and knew about the MTHFR and Factor V.  I was doing lovenox injections and progesterone and a crapload of other stuff, but we still lost our 4th baby.  It sucks.....for some reason I have "scars" or discolored spots on my belly from the lovenox bruises that are daily reminders that it didn't work.   I haven't done an injection in 6 or 7 weeks, but the spots never went away. :(  Sorry, I am a downer today.

    7 mm/c
    APS, hetero factor v leiden & MTHFR
    bfp #1 - 12.11.07, edd 8.14.08, mm/c 1.21.08 (10w4d)
    bfp #2 - 4.4.08, edd 12.3.08, mm/c 5.14.08 (11w)
    bfp #3 - 8.3.08, edd 4.15.09, mm/c 9.17.08 (10w)
    bfp #4 - 1.15.09, edd 9.26.09, mm/c 2.16.09 (8w2d)
    bfp #5 - 6.16.09, edd 2.25.10, mm/c 7.23.09 (9w)
    bfp #6 - 8.12.10, edd 4.27.11, mm/c 9.16.10 (8w1d)
    one more try -> bfp #7 - 2.11, our miracle baby boy arrived 10.11
    ttc again -> bfp #8 - 5.3.13, edd 1.13.14, mm/c 5.30.13 (7w3d)
    bfp #9 - 9.23.13, our miracle baby girl arrived 5.29.14

  • I'm so sorry, Samm. (((BIG HUGS)))
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  • I'm sorry you had a bad day.  And Im sorry to hear about your loss..   Please feel free to vent on here anytime, we all know how you feel.  In fact my therapy is being able to vent here and get questions answered. 

    I hope that your day gets better and my prayers will be with you...

    I am a married mom of 3 beautiful earthly DD's ages 15 yrs, 6 yrs and 11 months. I am the mom of 5 angel babies (CP, 7 wks, 8 wks, 18 wks, and 14 wks losses)

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  • I"m sorry you are having a bad day... and I hope things turn around for you soon....
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  • I am so sorry.Vent away! I hope you have a better day tomorrow!
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