Reality Check

rcollier_17

I was visiting my sister this weekend. We threw her a big birthday bash and we were winding down for the night. It was 11:30 or so and I was very sleepy. I was sitting in her nursery talking to her, rocking back and forth in her rocking chair, when all the sudden the magnitude of what it means to have a child hit me. In just 7 or so months I will be sitting in a similar room rocking my own child back and forth, learning how to be a mommy, thinking about how in just a couple years I'll be the woman chasing my child arond the store and then sending my child off to school for the first time. What a blessing and a huge responsibility. Thinking about how much my life is going to change and what it means to switch into the role of motherhood, living my life for someone else is just wild. Sometimes I still feel so young, too young even (I'm 24 for the record). Me a mom? What a foreign sounding title. At the same time though I can't wait. I can't wait to share this experience with the man that I love. What a blessing and what a joy.

Quite the reality check I had this weekend!!

notelizabeth

i had a reality check this weekend when i did the math on how much we need in reserves to pay the bills (not including gas in the cars) to get us through til DH's graduation, aka possibly the end of my maternity leave.  granted, i gave us a cushion til the end of Jan (figured an extra month for him to find a job).  but ...  yikes. 

granted, this pregnancy is a little earlier than we were planning, and i do get a little bit of money from my short term disability, but it's not like i can save a dang dime on my salary anyway.

i feel an impending meltdown coming on.  DH better get his butt in gear & graduate, that's all i have to say!

CrazyChef

I'm still waiting on my reality check.  I'm fully aware that it's happening, but it just hasn't hit me with the full magnamity of it yet.