well, we tried out going to daycare this morning.
positives:
it was much easier than i thought to get out of the door
jack didn't scream the whole way, though he HATES the carseat
jack was smiley and flirty with all the teachers so i know he will be happy
two people said "i am SO EXCITED that jack is in cloth diapers so i can
learn how to do them"
the kiddos in my classroom miss me and were happy to see me
DH is willing to look at me being a SAHM after i give it a good 2 months at
work to see how it goes.
negatives:
i want to SAH so bad, but it isn't an option right now....and we aren't sure
if it will be at all.
jack was SO into everything that he would NOT nap until we got home.
he is exhausted.
i am not going to be able to pump exactly when i want all the time
i am so anxious about it all that i feel nauseous and have been getting
bad headaches.
so i guess it isn't as bad as i thought, but we shall see how it goes on wednesday when i am actually back to work. plus jack STTN last night which was both miraculous and welcome, but he doesn't normally and i KNOW i am gonna be so tired!! we go back to visit a little bit tomorrow too, and hopefully they won't be short staffed again so i can practice leaving jack in there without me for a little bit. this is hard :-(
Re: a day of new things
ugh.. good luck to you.. i was wondering about you this morning since you're often online early and wasn't sure when you'd be starting work again..
*hugs* of strength to you - i bet this is going to be a rough week for you till you guys get into a 'rhythm'
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it is a GREAT situation...i work there so i know the teachers and i pulled some strings to get him in the infant room i wanted him in. i am just sad i have to be away from him at all...and i am not sure if i will still get a lunch break with the pumping breaks i have to take, so i don't know if i will get to see him during the day :-(