OMG I'm just feeling really emotional right now. Probably b/c I know my work day is almost over which means I go home. Which means I'm a little closer to testing. And I don't want to test. I don't want to know the answer if it's negative.
I just called DH to ask what he thought about testing tomorrow. He said "test tonight." I said no way.
I'm just this ball of nerves right now. I know this isn't the end of the line for us, should it be a BFN, but I just don't know how much more I can take, emotionally. To think that I've officially completed IVF #2 is just so emotionally overwhelming. Who grows up thinking it will be so hard to have a family, which comes so easily to some??
OK tearing up. Thanks for listening:-)
Re: I think I need a good cry.
Aww...honey! Hang in there! We are always here for you and we want this for you so badly! You are in my thoughts ... and I am sending you lots of BFP dust!!!
Keep us posted! big hugs to you!
2 chem preg, 4 failed IUIs, 2 canc IVFs, 2 BFN IVFs, IVF #5 = BFP!!!
3/23 Beta #1 @ 17dpo = 913, Beta #2 @ 19dpo = 1724, Beta #3 @ 21 dpo = 3240
First u/s 3/29 @ 5 weeks 2 days - 3 sacs 6 weeks 3 days - 3 heartbeats 8 Weeks - Lost Baby C, Babies A and B going strong
can I have a good cry with you??
((hugs)) and I hope that your test is positive tomorrow.
and yeah, it never in a million years occurred to me that it would be this hard.
Oh NO Stacey!!!!!!!!!! I just know exactly how you feel. It is such a tough thing. I know how emotional all of this is and it's hard to come to terms with it if it doesn't work. I will tell you this....do you look at me and say "wow, she's not going to have a baby?" I know some people might, but I know you don't. I don't look at you that way either. I know that this is it for you. I know this time worked. However, I also know that if there is some reason that this isn't, then you guys will find an answer. I have every faith and confidence that you will be a mommy shortly. I just do. I know you can't think that all the time, but I think it's important for you to know that someone does.
And, I think you have to do what you feel comfortable with. If it feels right to test, then do it. If it doesn't, then don't.
I'm thinking about you.....
(((HUGS)))
Sometimes a good cry helps.
I know what 'one of those days' can be like. Sometimes I feel a little better after a good cry. I'm starting stims for IVF#2 on Saturday and I just know that I'm going to be an emotional wreck after the transfer. When the first IVF didn't work I felt like I wanted to crawl under a rock and die. Nobody ever thinks it is going to be this hard.
I hope that all of your fears and worries and stress will be worth it and that you will be a positive test. Fingers crossed!
I am a runner, knitter, scientist, DE-IVF veteran, and stage III colon cancer survivor.
Just wanted to send some good luck your way!! I know sometimes it is so hard to have faith that something will actually work. I said a prayer for ya!!
I hope to see you posting positive soon and I'm thinking if it's positive, maybe twins!!
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
IUI#1-bfn, IUI#2-bfn, IUI#3-bfn, IUI#4-cancelled. 3/2010-IVF#1-c/p. 6/2010-FET
Best of luck to you....the 2ww is the worst! ((HUGS)) all the way.