More thoughts on my RE post below

crystalgirl

Thanks for all the kind words, you guys!!  -- about my conundrum and also about my little man. 

I am excited about the future possibilities but also terrified of taking on the responsibility of another little life!  I feel like I'm just squeaking by with this one...  I seriously wonder on an almost daily basis whether I'm really cut out for this!  

Another issue that's bothering me is the toll that pregnancy/baby have taken on me physically.  I still have some pubic symphasis problems.  I have all kinds of pain -- back, shoulder, wrist, knee, hip, ...it seems like a constantly growing list.  I haven't been getting enough sleep for these (nearly) 10 months, and I'm a person who needs a lot of sleep to feel human.  And I feel like I'm aging rapidly.  My grey hair is out of control!

So all of these things make me think I'm CRAZY for even entertaining the idea of more kids...  I haven't even touched on the newborn insanity, but you moms with tough infants know all about that!  Hmm...Maybe I am crazy!

Dang, sorry for all these long, rambly posts!!!  You guys are my sounding board. 

crystalgirl

Okay, I get the loser award for having a post viewed over 100 times without a single reply!!! 

I hope I didn't sound ungrateful for DS or anything of that sort!  I ADORE this tiny guy.  Actually, one of my other worries is that I'll never be able to get another kiddo that's as smart, sweet, happy, and adorable all rolled into one!  He's a charmer, and I'm smitten.  I can't win the lotto twice, right?!

Somebody throw me a bone so I'm not a double-loser for responding to my own post!!!!!!!!!!

kristinamh6

You're not a double loser! It's just so slow on here at night. I think it may be hard for people to respond since you're kind of just thinking out loud (aren't you?). I wish I could help, but I don't even have one yet. I can say that a lot (if not all) of women question whether they are "cut out" for being a Mom. I'm sure you are a great Mom, and you will be one to your second child too, if you decide to pursue it. And your second one will be just as wonderful as your first, even if it's in different ways. I'm sure the first year, couple years, or however long is extremely hard but they will grow up and become more self-sufficient. Then it will be a whole other type of parenting. Hopefully that helps. I think you should just take your time, and think about your options and what you really want. Don't do anything because you feel like you "should," but don't write anything off just yet either. OK, now I feel like I'm rambling. Have a great night Tina!

yankee42

awwww lady..i haven't been on since early today, or i would have replied earlier ?

you are no loser! you are the awesomest!!!

its funny what you said in the second post, because i was thinking the same thing tonight...as i was walking my 20 lb 10 month old up and down the hall at 10 pm, because it was the only way i could get his troublesome butt to go to sleep! haha..i was seriously thinking "i wonder if this next baby could be as perfect as my boys?" HAHA..im crazy! im truly in love with them, even thought they drive me batty sometimes (well, one of them;)

ya know...the way i think about it..since im already in the position...i was terrified at first, but seriously that past in hours...not days..i just took some time and said , ya know this is what's happening, im amazingly blessed to have it..and i will take everything as it comes. i think that is just the way i get through everything...i just kind of say...ya know..what ever i have to go through, just do my very best..im not perfect..i get frustrated, i scream that i need help sometimes..but, i *think* *hope* the tough stuff will pass, and that time will seem like a distant memory and is such a small small part of life...just think...there are so so so so so many more amazing times than difficult times, believe me, i get overwhelmed by the tough stuff, but then there are a million smiles, laughs, milestones...i cant even begin to think about when they start calling me mama..i will forget so many nights of no sleep, being covered in puke, haha

anyway...talk about rambling!!! just a little peptalk

love you lady...here to hear the vents, concerns, whatev anytime!?

crystalgirl

I love you guys.  ::::big ol' hug::::