ugh. analyzing the TP

lnle · March 2009

I know we all check the toilet paper obsessively in the 2ww. Well I have reached a new level of obsessiveness - really examining it up close to see if there's any spotting every single time - even in the middle of the night. Just now I *think* there was some very very light pinkish spotting, but I'm not sure. This is such a roller coaster. I can't wait for my u/s on Tues.

lovemymonkey · March 2009

hey lisa,

I wasn't an obsessive TP watcher until my last m/c. I was so innocent before then, thinking the hard part was getting pregnant! :-(

so what's going on?? I haven't been on the boards much this week... why are you on a roller coaster?? are you spotting?

caityr · March 2009

Hugs and prayers...:))))

katerena · March 2009

Oh sweetie, my heart breaks for you. I am so hoping that you get a miracle on Tuesday.

lnle · March 2009

ooh, Rose you have missed a lot! Not sure what you know and what you don't, so I'll recap:

Fri 3/20 - u/s at 6w3d showed only a yolk sac, no fetal pole, no hb - RE said it was a m/c and scheduled a follow-up u/s to confirm

Tues 3/24 - u/s at 7w0d showed enlarged yolk sac, fetal pole, and slow hb - it measured 5w6d, so a full week behind

RE is not optimistic that it is viable, but told me to start the PIO again

next u/s is Tues 3/31. I have zero pregnancy symptoms now, and I'm worried that I'll start spotting/miscarrying before I can even get to the next u/s.

I'm not sure if I'm pregnant or not right now!

CardsfanSM · March 2009

That is the story of my life.

lovemymonkey · March 2009

lnle:

ooh, Rose you have missed a lot! Not sure what you know and what you don't, so I'll recap:

Fri 3/20 - u/s at 6w3d showed only a yolk sac, no fetal pole, no hb - RE said it was a m/c and scheduled a follow-up u/s to confirm

Tues 3/24 - u/s at 7w0d showed enlarged yolk sac, fetal pole, and slow hb - it measured 5w6d, so a full week behind

RE is not optimistic that it is viable, but told me to start the PIO again

next u/s is Tues 3/31. I have zero pregnancy symptoms now, and I'm worried that I'll start spotting/miscarrying before I can even get to the next u/s.

I'm not sure if I'm pregnant or not right now!

OMG! what??! They saw a heartbeat???! I'm so confused! so there IS a baby growing? Is an enlarged yolk sak a good thing? what about your betas? are they still taking them and are they doubling?

ohmygosh... you weren't kidding when you said roller coaster ride! oh sweetie, I'm praying for a miracle for you!!! it's still possible, right? I mean, you're back on PIO so the RE must think it could be a possibility, right?

ok, let me calm down... I don't want to give false hope, but this is pretty freakin' exciting! a fetal pole and slow heartbeat is better than what you were told last week so we're heading in the right direction, right? ok, will be praying for you and the little one...

lnle · March 2009

lovemymonkey:
lnle:

ooh, Rose you have missed a lot! Not sure what you know and what you don't, so I'll recap:

Fri 3/20 - u/s at 6w3d showed only a yolk sac, no fetal pole, no hb - RE said it was a m/c and scheduled a follow-up u/s to confirm

Tues 3/24 - u/s at 7w0d showed enlarged yolk sac, fetal pole, and slow hb - it measured 5w6d, so a full week behind

RE is not optimistic that it is viable, but told me to start the PIO again

next u/s is Tues 3/31. I have zero pregnancy symptoms now, and I'm worried that I'll start spotting/miscarrying before I can even get to the next u/s.

I'm not sure if I'm pregnant or not right now!

OMG! what??! They saw a heartbeat???! I'm so confused! so there IS a baby growing? Is an enlarged yolk sak a good thing? what about your betas? are they still taking them and are they doubling?

ohmygosh... you weren't kidding when you said roller coaster ride! oh sweetie, I'm praying for a miracle for you!!! it's still possible, right? I mean, you're back on PIO so the RE must think it could be a possibility, right?

ok, let me calm down... I don't want to give false hope, but this is pretty freakin' exciting! a fetal pole and slow heartbeat is better than what you were told last week so we're heading in the right direction, right? ok, will be praying for you and the little one...

yeah, it's crazy! The RE was pretty surprised - he said "this is not what I was expecting to see". He said the prognosis is not good b/c of the enlarged yolk sac relative to the size of the embryo/fetus (what is it called at this stage??), and b/c the hb was so slow and it was measuring behind. He was definitely Dr. Doom and Gloom and acted like next week's u/s was going to be depressing. I'm trying so hard to be hopeful and send positive loving vibes to the little heartbeat, while also keeping myself prepared for disappointment. It's a tough balancing act!!

Thank you for your prayers - we can use all we can get!