Waaaaaay TMI - post IVF

katerena · February 2009

Okay, so I thought I started my period on the weekend. Turns out it was just one gush and a couple of days of spotting. Then it went away.

Well, it's back in FULL force now. I have been very crampy for days and on my way to work this morning was almost doubled over, even though I had advil for breakfast. and I had to change my tampon immediately upon arriving to work!! (my commute is 10 mins btw....)

When I was going to the bathroom the cramps suddenly got visciously painful and 2 distinct masses of clotting "fell" out in big lumps. I almost immediately felt better and my period has resumed normalcy again.

Here is my question..... was that them?? I know that I will never know, but I can't get it out of my mind.

CBL · February 2009

If by "them" you mean the embryos, no, not likely. I miscarried at 6 weeks. I didn't know I had actually m/c at the time as the sac was just a teeny tiny blood clot - smaller than an apple seed. But the pain was horrific.

What you are describing is way too big to be a sac/embryo.

I'm sorry. IVF BFNs suck and it's even worse when AF is so painful.

katerena · February 2009

Thank you. I know I sound crazy, I'm just trying desperately to process this. And it was so upsetting to see those two clumps, they were huge. I know the actual embryo's would be too small to see, but I can't help think, maybe my body built up a lining around each of them, maybe I did something that shook them out of place, maybe I'm going crazy and need to drink decaf......... I don't know. I'm sad and just looking for reason where there is none.