feeling very sad...

kmcclelland

I'm going back to work on Monday February 2nd and I'm feeling really down about it! ?I've always loved my job (I'm a 3rd grade teacher) and I thought that I'd be glad to go back to it, but now I just want to stay home with my babies. ?I can't believe how much I'm going to miss out on and I'm afraid that they won't know me/recognize me as their mommy because I won't be with them most of the day! ?Unfortunately, in this economy I need to go back to work because my job is pretty much untouchable, so in case (knock on wood this won't happen!) anything were to happen to DH's job we'd still have a source of income and insurance. ?The babies will be with my mom, so I know that they'll be receiving great care and be loved (my mom had twins so she knows what she's getting into), but I still just wish I could be home with them.

For those of you who are back at work, I have a few questions. ?First, how did you survive those first few days? ?What do you miss most about being home with your babies (so I can do lots of it over the next week and a half!)? ?How do you cope with feelings of jealousy towards your caregiver, that they get to be with your babies all day and you don't??

soxfan812

I'm sure it is harder with two babies, but when I went back to work with my DD, it, naturally, was hard.  I am a teacher, too, though, and I will say that one good thing is that as a teacher, you are SO busy all day that you don't have as much time to stress about the baby.  Of course, you will miss them, but while your students are asking you for 10 million things, your day goes by quickly.  And, as a teacher, you get more time at home than pretty much any other profession, so you can always look forward to those days.  I tried to think of how lucky I was compared to some of my friends who have very limited time off to spend with their babies.

I still was jealous that my DCP got to see DD all day, and what I missed most was just being able to pick her up and hug her whenever I wanted.  But, when I would pick her up from daycare, she would be SO happy to see me, and it just made my day.   Hope this helps-- good luck!

Oh- and on the upside- DD loves daycare and I think it has helped her to be a very independent and social child.  She plays well with others and is very friendly, and I think daycare has helped her to be that way.

 

Skatcat

Awww...I'm sorry. I haven't done it yet but I am going back to work about the same time you are and I'm already dreading it.

 

(hugs)

LilSurferGirl

It is very hard going back to work. I've been back for 5 months and I still miss my boys every day, but it does get easier.  In the begining you really just have to take it day by day until it becomes routine.  It's great that the babies will be with your Mom.  Ours are at home with a Nanny and while she's wonderful and I'm glad my boys love her - it's hard for me to see them with her and know that she gets them for the best part of their day. 

But the most important thing is that your babies are happy and healthy and with someone you trust, and you will be taking care of your family the best way you can - by helping provide a stable home, health insurance, etc.  In this economy, that's a huge thing you're able to do for your children.  They will always know that you are their Mom.  Their smiles and hugs when they see you at the end of the day will make it all worthwhile. 

ravenmama

I'm going back tomorrow and I too am so sad!  When the boys were first born I was excited to go back, but now that the time is here, I'm dreading it.  I wish I could stay home for at least the first 6 months.   As others have said, day by day.