Update, very long and still sad

krate24

I XPed from 3rd tri since many of you know my situation as well.

After receiving word on Friday that essentially the baby only had 48-72 hours to live inside me (with no chance of survival outside), as you all know we went home and decided to leave it in God's hands and wait and see.  Well, my husband and I went to bed around 11:00 and I woke up with cramps at 12:30, went to the bathroom and sure enough was bleeding.  I called the doctor and he said to go to the hospital.  The whole time, I'm thinking "this is it."

We get to the hospital and I'm thrown for a loop when they find the baby still has a heartbeat and that probably my placenta started to detach from the uterine wall, causing the cramps and bleeding.  They decided to admit me because quite a bit of blood had come out and it wasn't stopping.  The bleeding has stopped now, I have some periodic contractions, but mostly everything is back to "normal."

I've been at the hospital since then, still in a holding pattern.  My husband has been wonderful, staying by my side and sleeping on the couch in the room every night.  This has been insanely emotional for both of us and we are just trying to keep up the strength to handle this.  Basically, there is nothing we can do right now but wait. 

Every doctor has still said the same thing, that there is no chance that the baby will survive and it is just a matter of time.  We have been presented with decisions and hardships that I don't wish on anyone.

I appreciate all of the kind words, thoughts and prayers that everyone has sent my way.  At this point, I just pray for strength for my husband and I to deal with this, for God's will to be done, for us to make the right decisions, and to hopefully learn from this so that in the future we can try again.

I will XP this to the preemie board, but if someone could XP this to 0-6 and any other board that knows about my situation, it would be appreciated.  I will update more when I can, but there is usually a delay as I have to get a hold of myself before I can type these.

Thanks, Jessica

libby73

I"m so sorry you are going through this.  My step mom and a friend had late term m/c's around 25/26 weeks and they both went on the have healthy children.   All the best to you and your husband.  (((Hugs)))

KellyMichelle

I am so sorry about your situation and I am still praying for a miracle for you.

RRHsMom

I am not familiar with your situation but it sounds like you are going through an incredibly hard time and having to make decisions no one should have to make.  I will pray for you, your husband, and baby.  I am so sorry you have to go through this and hope you find some comfort somewhere whether it be from family, friends, faith, this board, etc. 

ijack

I am so sorry I will pray for your strength in this situation

gymrat

I am so sorry. I am praying for you and your DH.

TheShellSeeker

I am so sorry and praying for a miracle for you.  (hugs)

MrsJRT

I am very sorry.  I say a little prayer for you every night!

april062604

jessica-?

you remain in my thoughts and prayers. ?you are an amazing woman. ?i have no words to offer that could possible make you feel any better in such an awful point in your life. just know that i'm thinking of you and am so very sorry that you're going through this.?

-april?

Aidge

I will keep you in my prayers.  I am so sorry.

PMJacobsen

i have been thinking about you a lot. i saw your OP and haven't been able to get you and your sweet baby out of my mind. you are in my prayers and i hope and pray that God will work a miracle here! please PM me if you need anything at all.

Mrs. Destructo

I am praying for a miracle for your sweet little baby. I think about the two of you constantly.