I’m 23 weeks and my daughter was 26 week I’ve qhave never carried past 27 weeks my daughter was born at 26 with many needs she’s on oxygen full time now 4 and has many additional needs like peg and heart and developmental delay , I’m extremely high risk my daughters father and the father to the pregnancy same man , doesn’t live with us he works full time and we don’t see him at all in the week we split weekends with his other kids he just started with a new company that offered weekends too and I can’t bare it I broke in tears saying how I can’t take the lack of support the wages don’t go towards us in anyway he isn’t doing it to provide for us I pay bills and care for and pay for our daughter so the extra shift is to fill his pocket if I ask for csa or help I’m a money grabbing cow. I can’t take how lonely this is I feel being pregnant to him is a sentence it wasn’t planned and I’m so disappointed with myself as he doesn’t show for our daughter as it is or step up. When I called to say I’m not well after having contractions my cervix has gone short and started to dialate and on top I have the flu and chest infection I pleaded for help where he told me he’s now working weekends I said okay can u come after Saturday he then breaks it to me this is long term I broke down crying saying why would he take that without talking with me he said who am I to give him crap for working making out I don’t support his work . I do I get working Monday to Friday but extra optional shifts especially when we don’t see a penny it’s not worth the suffering it means one day every two
Weeks I can’t live like this anymore . I’m so lonely , depressed and scared if I cry he turns his phone off he said I’m the issue cos of this I’m a nag . I feel like I’m loosing the will I’m so lonely and scared he hasn’t made one appointment never felt baby kick we haven’t seen him in over 2 weeks when we do I have to pay fuel for him or I do the effort I had to pay all Christmas for our daughter he was meant to go half but when he got paid he turned his phone off . Please help me am I the problem for being so
Emotional about this? I feel on the verge of a breakdown . I’m so down
Re: Mama ready to break help me