This is my first baby. I had a c section. Baby was not planned but I was still decently excited about it. I had a terrible pregnancy. My employer was being a dick and I fought them to accommodate my needs. I had MAD sciatic nerve pain and pelvic pain. It hurt getting in and out of bed. Hurt to roll over. After c section I was in a good amount of pain for 7 days. My boyfriend’s family was silently judging me because during this time I wasn’t holding my baby as much as they felt I should. At 8 and 9 days I felt better from my c section and was able to hang out with baby more. My milk took four days to come in. I was getting shit from people for formula feeding. I’m very grateful my boyfriend is very attached to the baby. He always talks to him. Sings. Sometimes he gets irritated during the night cries but it’s nowhere near as irritated as I get. I look at my boyfriend and see their bonding and wonder why I’m not bonding with the baby yet. It’s been 2.5 weeks. I just feel like I’m “taking care of him” and not bonding emotionally. I feed, change, give him baths, give him some tummy time. But I’m definitely not emotionally attached. I miss my job. I feel useless if I’m not getting house chores done so I honestly do more house chores than I do hanging with the baby. (I do chores during nap times) I just feel that because the baby can’t show facial expressions yet, it just makes me feel like the baby doesn’t like me. I don’t feel any love. What can I do? Oh to top it all off I got sick and ran a fever last night. I feel like I can’t catch a break
Re: Lack of bonding