how should i feel while baby cries?

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not sure if this is the right place for this, new to the app. but i had a baby boy, january 20th! i adore him. but i’ve noticed something concerning about myself while he cries, sometimes, it’s the most heartbreaking thing to hear. i want to cry with him. i want to do nothing but to stop his hurt, scoop him up, and kiss him a million times. but other times at seemingly random, i am kinda detached? like on auto pilot, “how do i fix this” mode. i’m not there emotionally.in the moment it’s like he’s an alarm and i’m just trying how to figure out how to turn it off. does anyone know why this is?? i love him, so so much. i’m not mad when he cries ever, and in those detached moments i’m not sad either.  so i don’t know why i detach, i just feel nothing. please help a scared new momma out