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knottie6126989c2905f08f

First time poster here. It's been a year to the day since my first miscarriage and no ability to conceive since. My partner doesn't get it. He doesn't understand how lonely and hard it is. I feel like I'm bearing 100% of the mental and physical and emotional load. Hes a genuinely good guy he just doesnt get why its so taxing on me. He doesnt have to attend the millions of appointments or take drugs or obsess over what hes eating and drinking and exercising the appropriate amount and getting good quality sleep. No one sees that it feels like I'm slowly dying inside from the devastation and frustration. None of my friends struggled.

I hate trying to conceive. I hate that I got pregnant so easily the first time and can't this time. I hate that my body betrayed me.

knottieca9714d578057930

I’m so sorry you’re feeling so alone. It’s difficult for our partners to understand how lonely and isolating this process can be, there’s so much more pressure and guilt on us as women. I try to explain to my husband as well, and he supports in the ways he can, but I find myself on these forums for support more often than not. I hope your miracle comes 💕