PGAL Check-In 7/13

dmcg17

This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es). TW for entire thread due to discussion of MC, TFMR, CP, etc. 

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Weeks/EDD? 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?

Any appointment updates? 

Any big milestones?

Rants/Raves/Questions? 

dmcg17

Weeks/EDD? 18w6d - 12/9

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Feeling alright. My rash is finally not itchy anymore and I finished my antibiotics yesterday. I scheduled my appointment with the specialist, but I also have a question in with my regular doctor because the specialist is a perinatal office and they want me to do a level 2 ultrasound. I go for mine with my regular doctor on Monday, so I don’t know why I’d need a second one for a rash… It’s all just making me super paranoid.

Any appointment updates? Anatomy scan on Monday! Then specialist on 7/31.

Any big milestones? Not yet…just anxiously excited to see her on Monday. My last ultrasound was at 12 weeks and I can’t wait to see how much she has grown.

Rants/Raves/Questions: Nothing other than my rant above. Just feeling really confused and anxious about why they are sending me for 2 level 2 ultrasounds… I honestly feel like they’re blowing this rash way out of proportion, but I’m not the doctor I guess.

nerakh246

Weeks/EDD? 18w, Dec 16

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Other than itchy nipples and crazy heartburn, physically I'm doing well, lol. Emotionally I'm starting to feel overwhelmed. I have previous history of anxiety and depression and some days I feel that creeping in. My bump is still quite small which makes me nervous and I'm not sure if I feel the baby or not. Sometimes I think I can feel her but I'm not sure. I'm starting to slack on some of my responsibilities which I know doesn't help my anxiety but it's what I do when I'm overwhelmed, so I know thats a sign I need to recenter myself. I'm really nervous about the anatomy scan coming up. I'm a little older so I feel like this might be my last chance for success and I feel a lot of pressure. I am apprehensive to buy baby things for fear of not needing them 😔.

Any appointment updates? Check up on July 20th, anatomy scan July 26th

Any big milestones?

Rants/Raves/Questions: After experiencing 2 MMC I constantly have a feeling of potential doom in the back of my mind. I try to focus on the positive but I find it difficult. Anyone else feel this way? Do you have ways of coping? I'm going to talk to my doctor this week, but if you guys have any tips I'd appreciate it!

dmcg17

@nerakh246 Yes - I feel similarly! I try to tell myself that I can feel her moving, they just checked her heartbeat when I was there for my rash, and all signs have been positive; but I still have this nagging feeling sometimes that the next time I go something is going to be wrong. Any time there's a twinge of pain, my brain immediately goes to, "OMG what's wrong?" instead of thinking rationally that things are stretching and moving in there...it might hurt sometimes.  I also have a history of anxiety/depression, so it probably doesn't help that those feelings are already in my nature, then adding in a previous loss...it just makes it impossible to think positively all the time.  I do really just try to focus on the positives: I can feel her, I can see my belly growing, the chances of something happening this far along are very low - it doesn't always help, but it's the best I've got right now.  I'm hoping that getting to see her today for the anatomy scan helps. Wishing you peaceful thoughts!

clt2pwm11

@nerakh246 I don't know if you are Christian, but I wanted to share a devotional that helped me a lot. It's called "Courageously Expecting." It helped me get through the first trimester and feel more hopeful about my pregnancy. Again, it is Christian leaning and may not be your thing, and that's ok. But wanted to throw it out there 😊

nerakh246

@dmcg17 and @clt2pwm11 thank you for the replies. Sometimes it's helps to know I'm not the only one feeling this way, and I appreciate the advice and support. 

@dmcg17 I think I will feel better after the anatomy scan too! I feel like this trimester seems to be dragging on lol. Once she starts to move around a little more the constant reminders when she is active will really help on the home stretch! I hope you get to relax and enjoy this exciting experience too!

@clt2pwm11 I am a Christian too! I will definitely get that devotional, thank you! I have found in my life prayer and believing we are not doing this all alone has really helped me cope with my anxiety. I seem to be very easily triggered right now and could definitely use the extra support! 🙂