I just had my first miscarriage at 4 weeks and it was my first pregnancy ever. I’ve never had a positive pregnancy result until this pregnancy. We weren’t actively trying to get pregnant either. I’ve been having a hard time conceptualizing what happened. It’s hard at 4 weeks as I’ve really only known i was pregnant for a week or so. My husband and I were very excited and told our family when we found out since it was our first. We won’t be doing that again.
I feel kind of dumb for telling family and getting excited, I didn’t understand miscarriage in its full capacity. I’ve learned a lot but am also grieving - it’s been a week full of prepping mentally being pregnant, reading books, thinking about names and plans for things.
For context - My HCG was 22.9, then two days later 28.6 - four days later I started to bleed heavily and went to the ER, my HCG dropped to 13.1 and they let me know I miscarried.
Seeing babies and children right now is hard. I want to try again but I just feel like it’s hard for other people to understand grieving a loss this early. Everyone keeps saying “at least it wasn’t at 8 or 9 weeks” etc. my husband also is upset but I don’t feel like he feels at the same capacity I feel this loss.
Just looking for support / advice if anyone experienced similar.