TTCAL W/O 1/23

mambo5-2

**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.

Status:

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well?

Any testing coming up/any recent results

Questions?

GTKY: What is the most useful thing you own?

mambo5-2

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 
7 losses, cool story bro

Status: TWW right now

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well? MEH just waiting, I really hated this cycle as we don't know if its even worth any thing until H's SA.

Any testing coming up/any recent results SA for H Feb 6

Questions? Nope

GTKY: What is the most useful thing you own?

WHY DID I PICK THIS QUESTION?! But I think my air fryer, that thing is AMAZING. 

stashattack

@mambo5-2 wishing February comes faster for you so that you can get the results of DH's SA test!


1 loss this month.

Status: TWW

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well? Things are fine I guess. My OPKs are coming up pretty high, but not as high as my peak over the weekend. No clue what that could even mean but W/e. I'm just trying to let this cycle be what it is.

Any testing coming up/any recent results

Questions? No?

GTKY: What is the most useful thing you own? @Mambo5-1 why did you pick this question LOL. ummmm... All of my gardening stuff for growing food with all of these rising food costs. LOL

mambo5-2

@stashattack it was on a list of GTKY questions and I thought it was a good question! Then I realized I didn't know.....
First cycles after losses are awful. 

stashattack

@mambo5-2 yeah all this uncertainty is driving me nuts. but I'm just trying to be chill about it. I clearly have no chill though LOL.

mambo5-2

@stashattack I have zero chill. I always have to test early since I have such a history of early pregnancy loss. So I have no chill ever....

maggiemadeit

@mambo5-2 @stashattack I’m right there with you on no chill. How I wish I could be the person who waits to miss their period…

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: 2 miscarriages (6 and 12 weeks) and a chemical since August 2021

Status: WTO, CD8

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well? I’m starting to get a little down thinking of the looming 40th birthday, which will coincide with 6 months of trying again. I called my insurance company to see what they cover for fertility treatment and just the initial conversation made my head spin. Apparently the first step is to have my OBGYN diagnose me with infertility (by the very narrow insurance definition) before I can do anything else. So that’s fun. 

Any testing coming up/any recent results? No, but I think I will pursue some more testing if we make it to 6 months without getting pregnant again. I had the RPL panel run after my second loss, but have not done any other testing at this point. 

Questions? NATM

GTKY: What is the most useful thing you own? I’m going with the slow cooker. Big fan of throwing stuff in a pot and magically having dinner ready in 6-8 hours. 

stashattack

@maggiemadeit not me wishing more drs would commit insurance fraud as I see insurance being the biggest scam in the US 🙈

and I'm glad I'm not the only one that has 0 chill. 

mambo5-2

Insurance hoops are stupid hoops. 

stashattack

TW previous pregnancy mention and pregnancy

Last night was hard for me. I am still in touch with some of the moms from my lasts BMB on slack. ONe of them reached out to me letting me know she's pregnant but that she didn't want to share it with the group if it would make me uncomfortable or too sad. She also mentioned she found out around the same time I got the shit news about my last pregnancy.

I am very happy for her. She's been struggling to conceive #2 and she isn't out of the woods yet. I told her to share it with group. She deserves to celebrate this time with our group. I feel bad about my loss. I feel guilty that she felt hesitant to share because of my loss. I've felt pretty ok over all, but yesterday was an overall bad day and that was just the icing on the cake. And now I'm tearing up again and I have a meeting in 15min. UGH. 

maggiemadeit

@stashattack I’m sorry. It’s so hard. I always want to be happy for other people but it makes me feel like shit that it always comes with a side of feeling sad for myself. 

stashattack

This, It's so hard but I'm also incredibly happy for her. These emotions are hard to navigate for sure.

mambo5-2

@stashattack hugs my friend. I had a similar situation recently. Hers was making sure I was ok after my transfer failed. So many emotions