It feels so awful having these feelings but I am experiencing overwhelming gender disappointment after finding out the gender today: a boy. I should be thrilled to be having a healthy child, I honestly didn’t even think I could get pregnant. But at 39, and with a mother who went into menopause at 39 this is likely a one and done for me.
I wanted nothing more in the world than to have a girl and I want to love this boy so much. Part of my fears may be that I know my partner wants to bring him up in a very male-centric, sports-oriented way which I would prefer to let him choose his interests, but also I always wanted to have a little mini-me. Just hoping I’m not an awful human for feeling this way and that I can stop crying and feel a connection to the boy in me. Many thanks.