7 weeks, prenatal depression

newmum97

Hiya, new to this site but just wanted to find a safe space and people who are on the same boat as me. I'm 7 weeks in and experiencing deep depression, it's stopping me from seeing any positive in the future and preventing me from showing any love to my partner, which the obviously triggers a lot of guilt. I am predisposed to depression and am terrified that I'm now stuck like this. Has anyone else experienced/ experiencing anything similar? Hope is dwindling.

swizzlemalarkey

I would suggest reaching out to your doctor ASAP to get help. Or call a crisis number. Sorry you’re feeling this way. I’ve had moments like that as well. Safe Medication and counseling are available and will help you get through this. 

newmum97

I have been put onto 50mg of sertraline, I've been on SSRI's before and they didn't help much, but I'm desperate to feel better... or at least feel something. Thanks for your reply, Im hoping things get easier in my second trimester.

lilswed

Not alone mama. Lots of us are experiencing the same things. Found my birth month board to be pretty supportive- hopefully yours will be too.

swizzlemalarkey

I take the same med and dose. I started 2 months PP. It was very helpful for postpartum when my anxiety and intrusive thoughts were very bad. It did take a bit to set in. I would also suggest seeking out a good therapist you vibe with. They can help give you coping techniques and work through your feeelings with you. Also would be helpful for your relationship with your partner, I found the first tri to be a scary & overwhelming time. Lots of changes happening and it doesn’t help if you’re not feeling well. Remember there’s always inpatient and outpatient treatment programs as well if you feel like you need it. Don’t be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. 

newmum97

thank you guys, this website is a life saver. its amazing to be able to talk freely to people who have similar experiences and understand

lilswed

Ditto same med and dose- also have a counselor to talk to. So many changes and unknowns, it’s okay to not be okay, it’s okay to ask for help.

aggrowholesome

I’ve been feeling the same way. I read everything my husband does as hostile. I feel so unimportant and I’m in so much pain that I keep having intrusive thoughts about suicide and termination. I’m not going to act on anything but I can’t stop thinking everything would be better if I wasn’t pregnant or if I just… wasn’t. I’m already on Wellbutrin (from before pregnancy) but I feel worse than I ever have in my life. I’ve never felt so low. I’ve got an appt with my psych tomorrow (who specializes in expecting and new mothers and is also a new mom so I’m very lucky there) and waiting to hear back from my regular therapist for an appt.

My husband keeps telling me I’m hurting him with my lashing out and I don’t see myself as lashing out. I just see myself as being so deep in pain that I can’t function. And I have to keep apologizing to him but I just feel worse and worse. I think the worst part is right now I don’t care. I don’t care if I’m hurting him with my pain. I just want my hurt to go away. I want him to rub my back and soothe me and tell me it’ll be ok. He says he is doing that (maybe not the physical part but he says he’s focusing on preparing our home, creating space for me, being patient, etc).

I don’t know what to do. I feel so hopeless and alone.

aggrowholesome

I meant to mention I’m 6 weeks. It feels so early for this level of depression. I’m really scared.

newmum97

hey girl, im sorry youre having such a tough time i totally relate to you with the intrusive thoughts about suicide.  things have got a little better for me recently, so I'm sure they will for you as well. Don't feel guilty for the way you're feeling, if you already suffer from low moods then all your hormones will be putting that onto over drive.  If youve told your man the extent of how youre feeling, then he should understand that youre suffering and not intentionally trying to hurt/ upset him... pregnant women arent for the faint hearted (speaking for myself anyway). I'm almost 10 weeks now and the low mood is still there, but I'm not constantly being sucked into it and consumed by it, which could be the work of my anti-d's, or my changing hormones.  Everything is going to be okay, and at the end of it youre going to have a little precious baby and your life will change forever! feel free to message me if you want to chat x

knottie8fda4c920cdafe65

You can let your Physician refer you to a psychologist.I suffer from depression and anxiety also and am on medication.