Honestly, my oldest daughter. She has extreme emotional issues and it's beyond exhausting. She's regressed a lot over the last couple of months and she's driving me nuts. She almost nine and basically has the attitude of a teenager but the emotional regulation of a four year old. She developed asynchronously with all of her efforts going toward academics and she just never learned coping skills. She's been through extensive testing and therapy for years. There's nothing we can do to help her than what we are doing but she's more exhausting than our other two kids combined.
Sooooo DH took DS to the park while I was at work yesterday and they found a big stick and DH let him run the big stick almost all the way home. Today I take DS to the park and he finds another big stick. Of course first thing he does is book it to leave for our ace, but the big difference is it's a LOT harder for me to chase him now, let alone carry his tantrumming self back to the stroller. He's very big and strong for a two-year-old. Had to tell DH that next time they find a stick he should be encouraged to play with and leave it where he finds it because give me a few more weeks and will fully not be capable of catching up.
Friday's Supreme Court ruling. I'm sure this is a diverse group and I respect different opinions. But for me...yeah. That ruling, its ramifications, and whatever other reproductive cases might be reconsidered are certainly on my mind.
Everything feels so heavy right now. How am I supposed to raise our daughter in a system that doesn't recognize her basic right to bodily autonomy? How am I supposed to eventually send her to school when I don't know she'll be safe? If we want to have more children, how can I guarantee that I'll be able to get any healthcare I need? While my husband and I feel lucky that for us these aren't immediate questions, I'm just really struggling to grapple with the weight of it all.
My dishes haven’t been done in a few days, because I’ve just been lazy and really haven’t felt like doing them. And of course when I’m actually in the mood to get them done so I can cook dinner in a little bit, our apartment people have our water turned off! They don’t give us any warning or anything either, which is really irritating.
My job is dropping my contract a week before my due date, which means I won't get the paid maternity leave I thought I'd have. Now I have to job search and hope I can find something quick. So stressed.
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