Stillborn at 38 Weeks

elclemon

Hello there. Not sure if anyone is still on this message board. Reading the past discussions has been helpful and has made me feel better in knowing that I am far from alone in this very sad journey.
My daughter, Lyla Lee was stillborn on 4/18/22. We went in for her 38 week appointment two days before that and found out that she didn't have a heart beat. It was the worst day of my life. I had such a perfect pregnancy before then and Lyla always had such a strong heartbeat. I had no idea that there was even a possibility that she wouldn't live. We went to be induced the next day. I was so scared to see my baby and was worried she wouldn't look normal. When she was finally born I was shocked to see that she was perfect. Lyla was a little small at only 4 lbs 9 oz, but was perfectly formed and looked exactly like her dad. I'm so glad that I got to hold her for 12 hours in the hospital.
Lyla was our first born. We've been home for 7 weeks now and our house is so quiet. I keep thinking about how life would be so different if she was here. Everything mostly went back to normal which sucks. I was so ready to be a mom.
I'm praying for healing every day and for my next babies to be strong and healthy and get the chance to live a full life.

pillipala

I recently lost my baby boy too . Although he was not still born. He was perfectly healthy so we thought but he died at 12 days old. I hope you don’t mind me asking but did you have the covid vaccines whilst pregnant?.

elclemon

I'm so sorry for your loss.
I didn't get the vaccine; mostly because I didn't trust it while pregnant but for plenty of other reasons too.

firsttimemommydec22

I’m so sorry, I hope you are finding ways to cope and heal.

worried82

I am really sorry this happened to you. I am wondering how you are doing? You have been home a while now and it's probably still hard. People sometimes expect you to just get on with it.
Take each day as it comes. I hope you are talking to a counsellor. The most hardest thing I ever been through.

knottie2cab10dc3f055d8d

Hello all, 
I just experienced something similar, the heart of our beautiful son Philippe stopped beating at 31 weeks and 2 days. I gave birth to him on Dec 14th. This is so hard. So painful. I just keep thinking how we had a perfect life before. How life was beautiful and how much we had hope for the future. Now I just feel empty and like everything beautiful is gone. 

Do you have any advice on how to get on with life after something like that?