HCG not dropping after MC (loss mentioned)

dalna

Hi,
I've been reading these boards for a while but never posted. I'm just feeling so...disheartened. I was wondering if anyone else has been in this situation.

I became pregnant through IVF at the beginning of January. We'd been trying for 2 years at that point, so I was ecstatic. But at our 6 week ultrasound at the end of January, there was no heartbeat. Waited 1 week to confirm, then another. Definitely no heartbeat. Waited several weeks, but I didn't bleed. I tried Misoprostol twice, then had a D&C in March. My hcg was 9,000 at that time. Got my hcg tested every two weeks. Hcg values were:

-3/8 (D&C) = 9,000
-3/22 = 400
-4/5 = 27
-4/19 = 10.8
-5/3 = 6

Any idea why the HCG levels would be dropping so slowly? My OB doesn't seem too worried - she says at long as it's dropping it's fine. But I'm still super worried that something is wrong. And it is KILLING me that it's dropping so slowly.

I've had other miscarriages (none of which had this problem), and my mom had several (8) miscarriages before having me, so the OB wants to run some genetic/clotting tests before trying again, but she can't run the test until twelve weeks after my hcg drops to zero. Twelve weeks! At this pace, I'm not going to be able to do another embryo transfer until September - when I would have been due. I can't believe that I have to wait 9 months after a miscarriage to try again. And there's no guarantee the next one will stick either. I just feel so hopeless. I feel like there is no realistic end to this journey, like I'm going to be stuck in this cycle of IVF/MC/waiting-for-hcg-to-drop-so-we-can-try-again forever. Also, having to go through Mother's Day with all this going on was just salt in the wound.

Has anyone else gone through this? How did you deal with the uncertainty/waiting? At what point do you think about giving up? I want a baby so badly, but I don't know how much longer I can stay on this rollercoaster.

Thank you for reading my rant.

-Impatient