But not new to motherhood. I have a 16 months old girl, whom I love dearly.
For our second child we were really hoping for a boy. I wanted a husband for my boy for all the traditional reasons - carrying on his family name, couching would-be-boy in sports, etc. While I feel like a female can still do all of those things, he is a bit more traditional and I respect that.
Well, when we found out today that we are expecting another girl, my husband’s reaction was mediocre and unenthusiastic. I wanted a boy more than I realized also, but I’m happy to have a healthy baby either way, so my reaction to seeing the gender (we did a private reveal, just the two of us) was happy still.
His lack of excitement really hurt my feelings and I’m trying to let him process in his own way, but I’m still disappointed.
I know him well enough to know that his reaction is a bit fueled by fear of raising girls, that will be less that 2 years apart by the way.
What can I say to him? I don’t want to give him the cold shoulder. But I can’t find the words to explain how his reaction made me feel. Should I just leave it alone?
Don’t get me wrong, my husband is an AMAZING father to our daughter and he will be to our next daughter. I’m just looking for some advice, no judgement. Thanks!
This post could have gone in the "Team Pink, Blue, or Green- Announce Here!" thread. Had you read the **Read This Before Posting** thread, you would know not to start an entire thread for just one question.
@bmendenh91020 Nope, just started another thread. You have to actually click on the link of the thread in which you want to reply, type in the comment box at the bottom, and click the "hit reply" button. However, since we're already here, I'll say just give it time and he will come around. Gender disappointment is a real thing and you (and your husband) are both allowed to have feelings about it. My last pregnancy 4 years ago, I got pregnant on purpose, without my husband's consent, because I was tired of his excuses. He was pissed at me basically my entire pregnancy. He loves our child now and wouldn't have it any other way. Now that we're pregnant again, he is much more emotionally involved. But yeah. Just give him time to process. I'm sorry his reaction hurt your feelings, but he will come around eventually. Just try talking to him about it.
@bmendenh91020 agree with @stardustskies, he’ll come around. With our first, I was convinced she was a boy based on old wives tales and my “gut feelings”. My husband was definitely disappointed when we saw she was a girl at the anatomy scan. He had a day and was fine after that. Our second was a girl too and with this baby, he’d obviously like a boy but is just happy to have another baby. I’d just let him feel his feelings and he’ll be fine. He sounds like he’s a great dad.
@stardustskies damn that's a spicy move lol. Glad it worked out!
@bmendenh91020 so... I'm going to be slightly judge-y here, but hear me out.
@stardustskies is right. Gender/sex disappointment is very real and not a wrong thing to feel. But keep in mind that natural conception is essentially a 50/50 shot of what you're going to get. You knew that going into this. Plus there are thousands of women and couples that would kill to be in your position of being able to maintain a pregnancy or even just getting to the point of getting pregnant who would take whatever they end up with and are happy about it because it didn't come easy for them. Not necessarily a point to make with YH, but you are in a much more desirable position than a lot of people.
What matters most is that the baby is healthy. That should be your top priority.
*TW* History:
Me: 34 DH: 36 | Together since 2007 | Married July 2016
TTC #1 since 7.2017 Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3| all BFN IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name" RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer 2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20 Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21 Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22 | biopsy provided same effect as endometrial scratch; added supplemental progesterone and estrogen, prednisone, levothyroxine, and MTX Support to maintain pregnancy DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023 Consultation with RI | 6.6.23 Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56 Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox Repeat labs in 8 weeks Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues TTC put on pause
I'll agree with the others that say gender disappointment is real and there's nothing wrong with feeling that way. I think that's especially true if it's your last. I think I would have had the same mix of excitement/ wistfulness regardless of the gender this time around, just because either outcome would have foreclosed the alternative path from ever happening.
It isn't the feelings, but the actions in response to those feelings that can be a problem. I don't think there's anything you really need to say or do at this point regarding your DH's feelings. However, if he were to, say, pout about it for weeks, I would personally probably have some strong words about that sort of behavior.
Thank you all! Husband came around today, we talked about why he was feeling the way he was and he (we) are both so excited and grateful for a healthy baby girl!
(I’ll now learn where to post properly! Thanks for your patience and advice!)
Re: We’re having another girl…
@bmendenh91020 so... I'm going to be slightly judge-y here, but hear me out.
@stardustskies is right. Gender/sex disappointment is very real and not a wrong thing to feel. But keep in mind that natural conception is essentially a 50/50 shot of what you're going to get. You knew that going into this. Plus there are thousands of women and couples that would kill to be in your position of being able to maintain a pregnancy or even just getting to the point of getting pregnant who would take whatever they end up with and are happy about it because it didn't come easy for them. Not necessarily a point to make with YH, but you are in a much more desirable position than a lot of people.
What matters most is that the baby is healthy. That should be your top priority.
TTC #1 since 7.2017
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22 | biopsy provided same effect as endometrial scratch; added supplemental progesterone and estrogen, prednisone, levothyroxine, and MTX Support to maintain pregnancy
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC put on pause
I'll agree with the others that say gender disappointment is real and there's nothing wrong with feeling that way. I think that's especially true if it's your last. I think I would have had the same mix of excitement/ wistfulness regardless of the gender this time around, just because either outcome would have foreclosed the alternative path from ever happening.
It isn't the feelings, but the actions in response to those feelings that can be a problem. I don't think there's anything you really need to say or do at this point regarding your DH's feelings. However, if he were to, say, pout about it for weeks, I would personally probably have some strong words about that sort of behavior.