PGAL 12/9

faithmovesmountains

This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es). TW for entire thread due to discussion of MC, TFMR, CP, etc. 

Weeks/EDD?

Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

Any appointment updates? 

Any big milestones?

Rants/Raves/Questions?

faithmovesmountains

Weeks/EDD? 27 weeks +1 day, due March 9

Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? PPROM resulting in stillbirth in my first pregnancy, it was long and drawn out.

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

Physically still very tired. Baby feels like she is taking up more belly space so leaning forward feels awkward at best. Emotionally, been kind of back and forth. Today was pretty good, though.

Any appointment updates? 12/13 at MFM for growth scan, 12/22 for regular OB 

Any big milestones? Last week of second trimester. I did my 1 hour glucose challenge today, they say the results could be in by Monday, but could take up to a week.

Rants/Raves/Questions? DS seems like he’s starting to understand in small ways. He’s going to be 19 months Tuesday and I feel like he’s just getting smarter and more aware day by day.

Panaceia

Weeks/EDD? 25+3 / March 21 / RCS between the 13th and 15th

Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? 14 weeks, 10 weeks, 7 weeks, CP

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

Physically the same. Still really sick. I also dislocated my shoulder 2 days ago so that has been fun. Basically I'm falling apart. Emotionally I'm ok as long as I am feeling movement, but days where he doesn't move much sends me in to a bit of a spiral.

Any appointment updates? OB on the 14th, GP on the 22nd

Any big milestones? GTT and viability are done...have my sights set on 27 weeks right now and then 3rd tri.

Rants/Raves/Questions? My almost 8 year old told me today that no matter how big she gets she'll always be my baby ❤ Love my girls.

night_nurse

@faithmovesmountains and @Panaceia yay for babes that will have the very best siblings ❤️

Weeks/EDD? 27+1, March 10th

Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? MC in April

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

**TW: pre-term labor
After last nights 6 hour stent in l&d with meds and monitoring I woke up from a nap at 11am to more contractions. Still mild. But kept an eye on them. By 4pm they were 2-3 mins apart lasting 60 seconds and were starting to actually become painful not just uncomfortable, especially in my lower back. So I came back. Few more unsuccessful meds later and contractions were every 2 mins and painful. I’m only at 2cm with a really thick cervix still which is still reassuring. I’m on a magnesium drip, got the first betamethasone shot in case she decides to make her debut, and just waiting for an antenatal room to open up. The magnesium initially sucked but once the bolus was finished and they started me on just a slow infusion I actually feel better than I have in 24hrs.

Any appointment updates? Still have OB and GTT scheduled for next friday the 17th

Any big milestones? Just trying to keep this baby cooking.

Rants/Raves/Questions? Just trying not to stress about missing work and how it’ll financially affect us if I have to go on strict bedrest. I know it’s not what I should be worrying about but still, just another thing to occupy my brain.

faithmovesmountains

@Panaceia
Aw I hope your shoulder gets better, your DD1 was so sweet though. 

@night_nurse
Oh dear, thoughts and prayers going out to you.I hope your little one stays put for you.
Try not to stress about other things right now. I know it has to be hard not to.  

morgantu

@faithmovesmountains yes to the bending over haha. I tried to bend sideways to sing to DD in her bed last night and i couldn't breathe! ugh. 

@Panaceia omg your shoulder! What happened? hope it's not too painful

@night_nurse thinking of you stressful in so many ways. IDK what your job is like, but is there any way you could help out with admin tasks if you end up on bedrest? Scheduling, stuff like that? 

Weeks/EDD? 25+5

Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? 3 early losses

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? emotionally i'm pretty good. movement is consistent and sustained, which helps a lot. Physically i'm ok, heartburn and restless legs are the worst symptoms for now. 

Any appointment updates? nothing until end of Dec for placenta check 

Any big milestones? nope, rounding the corner on 3rd tri in a few weeks. 

Rants/Raves/Questions? rave that i think we are actually going to be able to have DD's trampoline birthday party this weekend! We postponed last weekend because she was too sick so i'm excited for her. Rant is that she has been a tantrum-y mess this week. I think part of it is trying to get back to routine/rules after several weeks of sickness induced leniency. But yikes. 

Panaceia

@night_nurse I'm so sorry you are going through this! I hope baby is able to stay put at least a little longer but of she comes early she's got an amazing strong mama waiting for her! Thinking of you ❤ 

Panaceia

@morgantu Awww I'm glad she will get to have her party! Numbers are starting to go crazy here again so I'm pretty sure things will be shutting down again within a few weeks. And DD2 managed to dislocate my shoulder:/ I was on the couch and she grabbed my hand and ran around to the opposite side and then fell really hard...it was just the right angle to totally pop it out of place. It's actually feeling better today than it has since it happened.

@faithmovesmountains FX for good glucose results! And isn't it sweet when the littkes start to understand? DD2 knows there is a baby in my belly, so now she insists she has a cat in her belly...🤣

morgantu

@Panaceia ahhhh you should see my face after reading that. Very Wince-y.Glad you're feeling better but...yikes!

night_nurse

@morgantu im so glad DD is feeling better!

faithmovesmountains

Going for my MFM appointment this morning, hoping to have good news at the growth scan and find out if I still need to see them or if I’ve graduated from MFM this pregnancy.

Panaceia

@faithmovesmountains Good luck today ❤🤞❤

night_nurse

@faithmovesmountains hoping with you for the best results at your appt! ❤️

achanceintime

@faithmovesmountains hope your appointment goes well today!

morgantu

i forgot about the special torture that is feeling distinct movement. Then as soon as i don't feel it for a little while, welp, panic mode. Ughhhhhhh. this poor kid is going to be annoyed with me before the even get out of the womb because of how much i'm poking and prodding trying to get them to move around. 

ETA: I remember last time i had the time and luxury to sit around and pay attention to baby movements. Part of me feels like i am "feeling less" of them because i'm either at work, thinking about other things, or physically engaged with a toddler, which obscures movement. Still not helpful other than rationalization. 

Panaceia

@morgantu I am EXACTLY the same way. I have to keep reminding myself that my movements put baby to sleep so it's only when I'm still that I'll feel him...but that doesn't stop me from drinking alllll the ice water and making sure to lie in positions at night that I know make him move. With DD2 I would poke her allllll the time right up until delivery. Poor kid. I'm sure I'll be the same once this guy gets a bit bigger and I can figure out where he is actually hanging out in there lol

rachelredhead

@morgantu we are the same person. 😂 I had a couple nights where she was literally doing jumping jacks in there and then I had a couple days where she was less active and I just kept poking her. Poor kid. 

achanceintime

@morgantu YES! I get anxious when she hasn’t moved in awhile, a couple of times to the point of trying to decide if I should go in to get checked out. All the cold water or orange juice, and poking at my belly yo get any twitch!!

faithmovesmountains

Maternal Fetal Medicine appointment today came with worrying news. Baby girl has a good heartbeat, but is only measuring in the 10th percentile with her stomach only in the 8th percentile. That means she is small and they’re worried she may not be getting enough blood flow and nutrients from her placenta. It looked okay today, but I have to go back every week for at least a month to be sure she’s okay.

If she were determined not to be thriving, they would force me to go into preterm labor and get her in the NICU for proper nutrition. They said this is a worst case scenario and she will likely be fine, but I’m scared.

PGAL brain has me ugly crying in the car.

morgantu

@faithmovesmountains how scary, i'm so sorry you got that news today. i'm sending you every good vibe possible that she's just naturally a little nugget and the increased appts can provide you some reassurace after you have time to digest the initial conversation.  

Panaceia

@faithmovesmountains I'm sorry 😞 I have no words of wisdom or anything to help take the stress and worry away. I am so hoping that everything is looking stable at the next scan and baby can stay in a bit longer. But if she needs to come sooner then you've got this! She is a strong girl and she has got a strong mama! Sending all the positive thoughts I can your way ❤❤❤

achanceintime

@faithmovesmountains I’m so sorry that that was the news you got today. Prayers and all the positive vibes that everything remains stable with her growth, and that she’s a healthy little baby. We are all here for you if you need a good vent

friends-fan

@faithmovesmountains in sorry you received negative news today.  Positive thoughts for you that everything is fine and the next scan will show a growth spurt!  If she does need to arrive early, you've got this covered! 

kgg2241

@faithmovesmountains I am so sorry 😔. I'm thinking of you and praying for baby girl. 

night_nurse

@faithmovesmountains Thinking of you. So sorry you didn't get reassuring news. Can’t imagine the stress. Here for whenever and whatever you need to vent ❤️ Hoping for miraculous growth at next week’s scan.

faithmovesmountains

Thank you all for the support.
 I thought third trimester I would be able to breathe, being viable and all, but now I feel like I’m back to holding my breath again.

Jeenyus

@faithmovesmountains I'm so sorry you are going through this.  I hear you on the being able to breathe - it's hard enough with PGAL brain, but when their are issues it is very triggering.  I'm thankful you have a safe space to talk about it - hoping little one shows some growth in the coming weeks.

@night_nurse What a scary experience.  It sounds like the contractions eventually settled, hopefully they haven't returned as strongly since?

@morgantu @Panaceia I'm with you on the movements - I feel like I was feeling my daughter a lot more at this point - I would have to poke her feet out of my ribs later in pregnancy!  At my OB appointment that said he's likely flipped and has his back to my front, which may be the cause of less movement.  I've woken up at 4 am a few times, and he's having a little dance party in there - so @Panaceia may be on to something with our movement/voice soothing them during the day.

lurvleybunchococonuts

@faithmovesmountains *hugs* I am so sorry, PGAL sucks and that has to make those worries triple. Keeping you in my prayers and hoping your weekly scans show progress ❤️

@morgantu @panaceia movement is the only thing keeping me sane at this point. 

@night_nurse how terrifying! Glad you and babe are okay and praying the next few weeks fly by and you're able to keep babe cooking as long as possible ❤️

I don't really have the mental or emotional ability to do a full post right now. I'm still around. Sorry that I don't participate as much as I should. Babe is doing well. Holidays are hard. Really really hard. 

night_nurse

thinking of you @lurvleybunchococonuts ❤️