TTTC Check-In Dec 2021

hithertorue

Since the board has been so quiet, let's simplify... Tell us about yourself and join the thread for December. Since all the technical discussions are ongoing over on the Infertility board, let's use this board as a support for just wanting to talk about your journey, your struggles, anything needing to be vented, or anything you need to support you on your path!

Let us know:

DX?

RX?

Any Rants/Raves?

December can be a tough month when struggling with infertility. Let's chat!

hithertorue

Hey everyone (anyone)!

DX endometriosis and adenomyosis
RX excision via laparoscopy (Sep 2021) and IVF #2 (2022)

Let's chat.

December is a tough month. Naturally I get introspective and nostalgic as the end of the year approaches. I turn 37 in January and this. is. not. where. I. thought. I. would. be. 

I'm still trying to come to terms with the endometriosis diagnosis after having been with an RE for over a year in 2019 and 7 medicated cycles plus 2 investigative cycles and it never being considered. And on top of it having asked so many times over the years if something more was going on and being dismissed for my pain and symptoms I was experiencing.

I can't help wonder what would have happened if at 18, 21, 24, 27, 34 ... that one of these doctors (when I had specifically asked) would have taken me seriously and found the endometriosis sooner... would I still be 4 years of struggling to conceive? Or would I have my family by now?

Currently in the waiting game. January follow-up with the RE to make a game plan now that I've had the laparoscopy and excised the endometriosis. Taking BCP. Wondering if I should just stop taking it and try naturally while we wait but telling myself to be patient and keep on it per my endo doctor's advise. 

The RE wants me to pay for a new AMH test despite being on the BCP and this probably skewing the results... I don't understand that part. I feel like it's just the staff not able to cope with someone that doesn't fit the standard mold of patient.

Then I'm also spinning on the IVF. Our first round resulted in 2 abnormal and 1 high mosaic with chromosomal issues. So I am dreading getting similar results but also fearing getting good results... because FET is completely new territory and there are some hard what if's there.

Ugh, lots of thoughts starting to roll through the brain now.

kaylev0430

I can't imagine how frustrated you must feel.I will be thinking about you as you get ready for the new year and what comes with it. 

hithertorue

Thank you @kaylev0430! I've had the year to sit with it because surgeries were delayed with covid so it hasn't been constant frustration but definitely finding it harder now, post-surgery and waiting on the next step with Christmas and the end of the year and another birthday looming in January. Feeling all the things at the moment.