PGAL w/o 12.2

inthewoods23

This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es)


Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 

Previous loss(es)? 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

Any appointment updates? 

Rants/Raves/Questions? 

Any milestones coming up? 

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity?

quelinda99

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom?: 7+4, EDD July 19, FTM

Previous loss(es)?: MMC April 2021

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?: I am feeling good, emotionally. Physically I have nausea and I vomited (!!!) which I never got with my first pregnancy. It's giving me a lot of confidence and then I hear a little voice in my head telling me not to get too excited.

Any appointment updates?: First appt and scan 12/13. UGH! so far away.

Rants/Raves/Questions?: My mom is out visiting! We haven't told anyone but I think she suspects. I had her come out because my husband is traveling and I didn't want to be alone during these few weeks just in case. I want to tell her, but I am so scared of telling anyone until we've had an US. Part of my coping is sort of pretending this isn't happening.

Any milestones coming up?: I'm not getting a scan until after I got one for my first pregnancy so it's hard to say. I'm not really focusing on milestones timewise, just trying to get to my first scan and see a heartbeat. My last pregnancy I went in at 8 weeks and the baby was measuring a week behind and saw a heartbeat. Then two weeks later started bleeding, got an emergency ultrasound and baby had only grown a week and no heartbeat. Had a MC 2 days later. 

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity: I'm really not sure! I grew up in Southern California so we didn't really have winter activities. Now I live in Maryland but where I am winter is pretty mild. Not a lot of snow but we do get ice. My favorite winter activity is leaving so I don't have to deal with it lol. Or just staying inside!

runnergirl2018

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom?  8+3, due 7/11,  I have one son

Previous loss(es)? a MMC in Aug - baby never grew past 6+3 but not diagnosed until end of week 10

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? physically much more nauseous this past week and up and down with eating, which is just annoying.  emotionally getting worried/excited for my upcoming appointment.  

Any appointment updates? saw OB at 6+4 and baby measured 6+1, which i know is within range of normal but so wished it was on target or further along to be past the dating last time.  HR was 114bpm, which doc said was fine but he wasn't enthusiastic about, and I was diagnosed with an SCH.  I have an upcoming appointment tomorrow at 8+4 to check on the SCH and make sure babe is growing

Rants/Raves/Questions? i just really hate first trimester, i always feel like garbage the whole time and it's hard to do my normal stuff.  I also work in mental health and spend an hour at a time with people with minimal breaks, and it's really hard to pretend you are okay for an extended time when you just want to puke.  It's also really hard because last pregnancy that we lost, i felt all the awful symptoms up until a few days before my D&C even with baby not growing fo rweeks....so part of me is really worried that is happening again. I"m not reassured at all by symptoms really and just hoping that they are all worth it this time

Any milestones coming up? i'm anxious for my appt tomorrow and to see babe growing beyond where our last babe did

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? sleeping.  I actually really like to run/walk outside in the winter. it's so quiet and the cold air is so refreshing. I'm a little worried about running this winter in the Midwest due to ice and being pregnant so may just stick to walks.  I also really like baking cookies and other comfort foods.Secretly hoping things all keep going well with baby so i can eat however many xmas cookies i want and blame it on the baby 

peppylilfoxy

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 6+5, EDD based on day 5 FET is July 23

Previous loss(es)? 7 losses at various weeks from 5w to 39 weeks

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Nervous and anxious for the ultrasound. I just want to hear that heartbeat already!

Any appointment updates? Ultrasound on Monday Dec 6

Rants/Raves/Questions? I hate how judgey people can be when people's fertility journies aren't like the average person. I've had some ignorant people who have made comments like "why would you use your last embryo on someone else carrying and not you? You have carried full term before." It's so triggering. I have a genetic blood clotting disorder that caused my early losses and the loss of my son (cord accident) was an extremely traumatic experience. I've been through too much and would rather trust the body and health of my friend who has 2 healthy teenage girls over my own.

Any milestones coming up? 7 week ultrasound on Monday! My friend (gestational carrier) and I are eager to find out if there is one or if it split into two! Her numbers are high and she's already wearing clothes she wore when she was 8months preg with her first.

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? I just started curling this year and I love it!

bumblebee0210

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 6w4d, July 24, STM

Previous loss(es)? 2 MMCs, 2 CPs

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Physically I feel terrible, though not as bad as in previous pregnancies because I started taking diclegis like the second the stick turned pink. Emotionally, I'm anxious and detached. My first US is Monday, and I have total ultrasound PTSD. Unfortunately I don't think the hearing the heartbeat will put my out of my misery this time, because in my last pregnancy I had 2 healthy heartbeats at 8 weeks (identical twins), and found out I had lost them at 11.5 weeks. In all of my pregnancies I have been pretty symptomatic too, so the symptoms are also no comfort. This is, however my first tested euploid embryo (the rest were natural conceptions), so I am trying to hold onto that hope. 

Any appointment updates? Ultrasound on Monday Dec 6

Rants/Raves/Questions? Just anxious to get out of the first tri. I mean obviously I am grateful to be here, but it feels like limbo until 12 weeks (and 12 weeks feels so far away). 

Any milestones coming up? At my first mc, there was a slow heartbeat at 7 weeks, so I am hoping to get past this one with a good heartbeat. 

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? I started downhill skiing as an adult and really like it, but I stick to the greens & easy blues. 

rubyrose_0919

@inthewoods23 - I'm in awe of how well you are leading and organizing this board. Thank you for starting this thread.

@quelinda99 - I love how happy you are that you vomited haha! Pregnancy is a trip!

@runnergirl2018 - Best of luck at your appointment. I'm taking a moment to close my eyes and cross my fingers for you.

@peppylilfoxy - I'm so happy you are here. I cried reading your intro and it made me feel so connected to you. I'm also a multiple loss mama and we've been through more than our fair share of hardship. I'm pulling for you mama.

@bumblebee0210 - I feel ya on the ultrasound PTSD girl. That shit is realllllll.

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 9 weeks on TB tomorrow, July 8th, One Living Child (almost 4), 6 Angel Babies, and well one in the oven.

Previous loss(es)? MC at 6 weeks prior to my son, chemical in Oct. 2019, MC at 11.5 weeks in Feb 2020, Loss at 22 weeks due to Turner's Syndrome in Oct 2020, chemical loss in Dec 2020 and a Ectopic loss in March 2021 where I saved my organs but had to do a 3 month round of chemo called Methotrexate. What a journey.

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? I feel like shiiiiiiiiiit lol. I've never had too rough of a time in any pregnancy yet (no vomiting) but this go around I just want to be laying down 24/7 with no responsibilities ever. I'm so bloated, my skin is an absolute train wreck, and I feel like getting any actual work tasks done is just impossible. Emotionally, I'm still in a good place - just taking my vitamins and taking it day by day.... that's all I can do. Whenever I get anxious I imagine tying a ribbon around my baby and up around my heart. If they baby leaves they can take that piece of my heart with them, but it always makes me feel like they are a little more secure in there to envision that tether.

Any appointment updates? I missed my ultrasound date due to sniffles and have yet to reschedule (probably because of ultrasound PTSD 😂) nothing an ultrasound will tell me that my body won't tell me in it's own time. 

Rants/Raves/Questions? everytime I am in one of these groups I'm just totally stunned at the costs that our American neighbours have to pay for basic health things. And no guaranteed parental leave! My gosh, I don't know how you all are doing it! Props to each of you. I forget how good we have it in Canada and I hope all the things that are universal here become universal there someday soon too. In my last group people asked the Canadians a ton about how our Healthcare/Maternity leave etc. works (there is a lot of misinformation in the States about it!) but if you have questions, I'm happy to share!

Any milestones coming up? 75% of the first tri done!

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? All of them! I'm Canadian! Lol. But especially starting seedling indoors in preparation for a beautiful and successful summer garden.

inthewoods23

@quelinda99 yes indoors is great in the winter! Lol

@runnergirl2018 hope everything goes well for your appointment tomorrow! Let us know how it goes

@peppylilfoxy what your friend is doing for you is such a wonderful thing!

@bumblebee0210 I'm rooting for you! Hopefully the holidays can be a good distraction from how much longer until 1st tri is over

@rubyrose_0919 you're welcome! That's a lovely visual for when you're anxious ❤️

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 8w/July 14/FTM

Previous loss(es)? At 8w2d last year Oct 2020

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Still just feeling blah and my energy levels are up and down. Another good ultrasound today means more happiness and more feelings that this is real.

Any appointment updates? My ultrasound shows I am right at 8 weeks! On to the next ultrasound next week...

Rants/Raves/Questions? I think DH will finally be able to join me for the ultrasounds next week. Assuming he doesn't have any meetings during my appointment time! Curious how many of you have already told family or if you are waiting, at what point in your pregnancy are you going to tell?

Any milestones coming up? If we make it too/past Saturday then this pregnancy will have surpassed the length of my last pregnancy ending in MC!

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? I try to make at least 1 snow angel every winter haha

sunshineandlemons

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 7w2d/July 19th

Dumb question maybe, but I lean towards considering myself a 4th time mom. My third baby was a loss but still a baby to me. 😢

Previous loss(es)? 1 MMC in July

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Emotionally, I’ve cried about things that are super sweet. Also, cried over the thought of needy kids this holiday season. Physically, I’ve felt nauseous, had a migraine the past two days, sore boobs and exhausted. Hoping that’s all good signs! 

Any appointment updates? Tomorrow!! 🥳 I’m so nervous. We found out at my 8w appt in July that baby was measuring 6w1d and couldn’t find a heartbeat so I’m praying this baby is growing in track and we will see a heartbeat tomorrow.

Rants/Raves/Questions? Raves- my dog ate grease out of the grease trap on our smoker and puked it up. I cannot deal with the smell and my poor husband has to clean it up on his birthday.

Any milestones coming up? I feel like every day I still feel symptoms past 6w1d is a milestone. 

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity?  I love sitting at home with a cup of coffee, under a blanket when it snows! Once it’s done, I like to be outside in it.

sunshineandlemons

@runnergirl2018 Good luck at your appointment tomorrow!

@quelinda99 I hate ice but it’s so pretty on the trees!

@peppylilfoxy i love watching curling on the Olympics!

@bumblebee0210 I know what you mean about not feeling hopeful despite having symptoms. I was the same way with my loss. Hopefully that’s not the case for us this time around. 

@inthewoods23 thanks for getting this set up. We’ve not told family yet but I slip saying that I might wait to get my Covid booster until second tri. I quickly changed the subject and she’s not mentioned anything but I know she heard it. As long as out appt goes well tomorrow, we’ll tell our parents.

lilirunning34

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 6w5d/July 24/4TM

Previous loss(es)? Miscarried in august 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Emotionally pretty anxious and excited. Nausea is really kicking in. I didn’t have any symptoms with my loss, but I know that’s not a guarantee either. But I am glad to have something. 

Any appointment updates? Baby was measuring 2 weeks behind this week but that was based on LMP and I’m hoping it’s off a bit anyhow. We saw a great heartbeat though. I have another ultrasound on dec 8. 

Rants/Raves/Questions? I wonder if there will ever be a point when I feel a little bit of relief this pregnancy 

Any milestones coming up? If I make it past today I make it past my loss day 

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? Probably everything Christmas related: movies, lights, songs, etc

laeberge3

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom?  6+5/July 24/TTM (as updated by my scan yesterday!)

Previous loss(es)?  Three losses in 2017, blighted ovum in October. 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?  Physically, I'm feeling more symptomatic than any of my other pregnancies which has actually helped my anxiety just a bit. Yesterday, I went to the bathroom and saw brown blood and flipped out. I've never had bleeding during pregnancy and had a good outcome, so I called my OB and fit me in same-day. Confirmed pregnancy in uterus with a heartrate at 127 measuring 6+4. I was so, so relieved in that moment. 

Any appointment updates? Next week, 12/9 for my official intake appointment. I'll be 7+4.

Rants/Raves/Questions? 

Any milestones coming up? My blighted ovum and loss were at 7+3, so coming up on that milestone next week as well.  

GTKY: what is your favorite winter activity? Cuddling in front of a warm fire and drinking hot cocoa. 

peppylilfoxy

@rubyrose_0919 I'm Canadian too! I'm not doing parental leave though. My husband and I just relocated for his job and I'm just starting in my new school division so I still have to wait for my contract to become permanent. Instead, I will have time with baby for the remainder of the summer then my mom is coming out to help while I go back to work. I've had some people act really judgey toward me for this choice but I feel like we're just too privileged here in Canada.

runnergirl2018

Thanks for all the positive thoughts! Everything looked good today and I feel so much better. I’m 8+4. They didn’t say where I was measuring exactly just that it was on target. FHR was 179bpm which is much stronger than last time and makes me feel the most better I think! Plus they were able to do abdominal ultrasound which they didn’t do last time because of size and my MMC in Aug they could never detect on abdominal US so happy we’ve reached that stage!  

My SCH is measuring smaller and I haven’t had any bleeding so that’s good. They’re doing another follow up in 2 weeks to check on the SCH again and because I want to do some screening tests (like nipt) and they can order them then. It’s hard on my schedule to go so often but glad I keep getting to see my little one much more often than is typical. 

rubyrose_0919

@peppylilfoxy woo-hoo 🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦

What a great due date to be able to enjoy the summer! Doing what works for your family is always the best choice, it stinks that people are being so judgy! I'm just glad we have choices, in my last BMP group some women were back to work 48 hours after giving birth!

With my son, my husband took 2 months and I took 16 months and that worked out great. It was nice to all be together for the first 8 weeks or so! Maybe your partner could use the time to take the summer off with you?

peppylilfoxy

@rubyrose_0919 lol, unfortunately my husband can't take any time off because he co-owns his company and they are doing majority of the asymptomatic COVID testing for our province so they are way too busy. He already basically works 7 days a week.